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“I don’t want you near me Max” I snapped.
“Julie I--”
“You tell me where he lives, and I can do this myself” I replied.
He just nodded and gave me the address, “Jor…can you come with me?” I changed my mind.
Max just looked at him then back at me in confusion, “go back to Liz” I said quietly, “since you apparently love her”
Jordan gently directed me to his car and we arrived at a huge apartment building only a few minutes from the club. I opened the door and slammed it behind me, before I could do anything Jordan stopped me.
“Jules, don’t do anything you’ll regret. Try calling her again”
I just took a deep breath, nodded and pulled my phone from my pocket. I dialled the number, and waited, no answer, “I’m going up there Jor” but again he grabbed my arm.
“Jules, I’m not letting you up there until you calm down. You’ll help nothing if you have a fit, plus, we don’t need a scene, it’s late, there are other people in the apartment”
Jordy, always thinking of others, “fine” I replied taking a deep breath in, “ok…I’m good”
“Ok” he replied, “let’s go”
We made our way to the apartment and up the stairs. I stood in front of the door for a minute and knocked. Nothing. I knocked a bit harder this time.
“Who is it?”
“It’s me Kris” Jordan said.
“Jor?”
“Yah” he replied, “it’s important”
“It can’t wait?”
“No”
I heard the lock click and the door opened. He froze the moment he saw me. Over his shoulder I saw Ally. I kept my composure and pushed Kris out of the way.
“Ally, we need to go” I told her.
“Why?” she asked looking at me with confused eyes.
“Kris is engaged Al…” was all I said.
She just looked at him, back at me than back at him. She stared at him for a minute before she looked down at the ground. She was breaking my heart.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked quietly, keeping her eyes on the ground
“Ally, I--”
“Don’t get near her” I said moving in front of him.
“Julie, this has nothing to do with you” he replied.
“Kris, when it comes to my little sister, it has everything to do with me” I said, “we’re leaving”
Ally grabbed her phone off the table and shoved it in her back pocket. She glared at him as she passed him and then disappeared around the corner.
“You ever try to get near her again…I swear…”
“You swear what?” he snapped.
“You have not seen half of what I can do Kris, do not underestimate me…” I said walking out the door and Jor just shut it behind him.
I walked out to the car and found Ally leaning against it, tears falling gently. I slowly moved towards her and wrapped my arms around her, “I’m sorry Al”
“It’s not your fault” she sniffed, “I was stupid enough to believe him”
“You’re not stupid” I reassured her, “he’s the ass”
She just shrugged, looking over my shoulder at Jordan, “where’s Max?”
His name made me cringe at this point, “we’re done…”
“What happened?” she asked.
“He decided to go back to Liz…because of something his father said”
“So that’s what was up this morning…”
“Yah, anyways, I’m done talking about him, let’s go home. Jor can you drive me back to my car please?”
“Sure thing” he replied.
We got to the car and I slipped the key in the lock opening the door and unlocking the passenger door.
“Jules?”
“Yah?” I replied turning around.
“You going to be ok?”
“I’ll be fine” I sighed, “it’s only a broken heart…I’ll survive…”
He just wrapped his arms around me and I melted into him. He was an amazing friend.
“I’ll call you”
“See you later Jor” I replied moving into the drivers seat.
We got home and I immediately spotted Max’s car. Probably cleaning out his stuff. Great.
“Jules, I’m worried about you” she said as we made it to the door.
“I’m fine” I sighed unlocking it and opening it.
I looked up and locked eyes with him. Those eyes that once shined, were dark, and cold…sad. I looked away and shut the door behind me. Ally walked up to him and looked up at him, on account she wasn’t the tallest person in the world.
“What gives?” was all she asked.
“Excuse me?”
“First you leave your wife for her, cause you claim you’re in love with her, then you go back to your wife? Is my sister not enough for you?”
I just grabbed her and pulled her back, “stop” I whispered, “leave it alone. He made his decision”
“Can we talk?” he asked. He looked over at Ally then to me, “alone?”
I shooed Ally to her room and she glared at him once more before shutting the door.
“Talk” I simply said.
“You know I love you”
“Alright”
“I have to do this”
“Alright”
“Damn it Julie, you have more to say. I know you” he snapped.
“I do. But none of it will convince you to stay with me, so there is no point in trying” I shot back.
“Give it a shot”
He just stared at me as the thoughts formed in my head. Finally, I spoke.
“I love you Max. With all that I have in me. I have never felt anything like this before, which is the reason I am carrying your child. But if you would rather fulfill a commitment because your “dad said so” than to stay with the one your really in love with, your not worth it. And I will not cry a tear over you”
All he did was grab my face and kiss me, I couldn’t help but kiss him back and it took all I had in me to pull back and push him off.
“I knew you had it in you” he whispered.
“Don’t” I said moving away from him.
“What?”
“Don’t do something like that if you still plan on leaving Max. That’s not fair…”
“Julie I--”
“Fuck you, Max” I snapped, “just stay away from me”
I walked into the bedroom and shut the door behind me. I told myself I wouldn’t cry over him, I told him that. It’s all his fault. He made me this strong. Not to take any crap from anyone, including him. So I’m done. I’m done fussing over him, I’m done crying, because he is no longer a part of my life.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Chapter 10
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The Penguins were gone on a road trip and my sister Ally was here for the weekend. Only the weekend. I knew if she stayed any longer, she would beg to meet some of the guys. I’m not stupid. I know how beautiful she is and I know some of those guys will pounce the moment they get the chance.
“How’s your sister?” Max asked over the phone.
“Good, I think she’s bored though” I sighed, “I’ve done everything but take her to one of your games, well, because you guys are gone”
“Well how long is she around?” he asked as I heard noises in the background.
“She leaves tomorrow” I said.
“Well, we have a game on Tuesday, tell her to stay and see a game”
“No” I said quickly.
“Why not?” he asked with confusion in his voice.
“Max” I said quietly moving to the other room, “I’m not getting her near your team, I don’t want her going through what I’m going through”
“How old is she Julie?”
“21”
“I think she can take care of herself”
“She’s still my little sister Max”
“I know, but give her some credit, she’s an adult, I think she can think for herself”
“Oh what do you know?” I huffed sitting on the bed.
He just laughed, “love you too”
“I’ll let you go” I sighed, “see you Tuesday”
“See you then”
I hung up and moved back to where Ally was slumped on the couch flipping through channels. I just sat beside her and watched as she didn’t budge.
“Um, so question for you” I said as she turned her eyes towards mine.
“Yes?”
“Well, how about staying a few more days?” I asked, “Max wants you to come to the game on Tuesday and I can send you back the next morning”
“Really?!” her tone suddenly changed.
“Yes” I smiled, “you can meet Max…and some of the guys” I mumbled the last part.
“You’re kidding right?”
“No” I smirked.
“I. Love. You” she said giving me a huge hug.
“Love you too” I replied, “but can I just warn you, be careful, please. I don’t want something happening with you like it did with me”
“Yah, yah” she said texting.
“Ally” I said snatching her phone, “I don’t think you know how serious I am”
“I’ll be careful” she sighed, “Now give me my phone please?” she had her arms crossed and a serious look on her face.
“Thank you” I replied handing it back to her.
I know Ally. I know that this wasn’t going to be that easy. Flirting with some of the guys was one thing, but for some reason I can just picture one of those guys saying something to her and they end up disappearing. I just want what’s best for my sister. Is that so wrong?
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Tuesday finally came and I woke up with Max next to me. I guess he must have come in late last night. I just smiled, watching him sleep. He must be exhausted. The Pens have been really busy the past little while, but they have been winning games which is what counts. It was coming up to April, but we all knew they were making the playoffs, they were, 4th in the conference, with the Devils just ahead of them. I had a good feeling about this season, especially since they were so close last year, but the Wings sadly came out on top.
I gently got up, trying not to wake him, I suddenly felt sick to my stomach and once again had my head in the toilet. It’s only been a week and I’m already tired of this. I stood up and brushed my teeth, I moved back into the room, he was sitting against the headboard and a small smirk appeared on his face when he saw me.
“What?” I said looking down at myself then back at him.
“Nothing” he said still smirking.
“Don’t start, I’m not in the mood” I sighed sitting beside him.
“You’re going to get through this Julie, I promise” he said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.
“Yah I know” I sighed.
In the midst of the perfect silence, my phone rang. Way to ruin the moment. I picked it up seeing a familiar number. Price.
“What?” I answered.
“Hey to you too” he replied.
“Sorry, I’m moody” I said, “what’s up?”
“I’ve been meaning to talk to you, I saw you and his wife going at it” he chuckled, “didn’t know you had it in you”
“Thanks” I smirked.
“Are you ok?”
“I’m perfectly fine, why?”
“Cause you don’t sound too healthy” he replied. My voice was hoarse from throwing up.
“Oh” I paused, I wasn’t sure if it was right to tell him or not, “I’m fine”
“Ok, if you're sure”
“I’ll talk to you later, k?”
“Alright, see you”
I hung up the phone and gently set it on the end table.
“Who was it?” he asked.
“Price” I replied.
I saw his jaw clench a little as he diverted his attention downward.
“Hey” I said putting my hand on his cheek, “he’s a friend, just checking in after what happened”
He relaxed and looked back at me, “sorry”
“Stop being so jealous” I joked.
“I have no one to be jealous of” he smirked.
I just kissed him gently as his phone went off. He turned to answer it and frowned at the name.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“My dad…”
“Go talk to him” I said pushing him off the bed.
He weakly smiled and answered the phone. He moved to another room, like I could understand half the things they would talk about anyways.
He finished talking with him and I was already dressed in a simple long white t-shirt with a long black open flap vest and a pair of black leggings.
“Everything ok?” I asked.
“Fine” he simply said.
He didn’t look like he was in a great mood, so I didn’t pester him about it. He left for practice without another word. I was a little nervous that something was up.
I moved to the kitchen where Ally was and just sat across the table from her.
“Met Max” she said, “cranky…”
“Yah, his dad called, he didn’t say much to me afterwards either” I sighed, “I’m hoping everything’s alright”
“I’m sure all is well” she smiled looking back down at the newspaper.
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The game went fine, they beat Atlanta 5-2. I got a text from Max saying he’d meet us at Diesel, so Ally and I decided to leave. We entered the building, the loud building and sat up by the bar. I wasn’t allowed to drink, but Ally ordered herself something as we chatted for a bit.
After a while, I saw a few players streaming in. Like Sid, Jor and Kris. Jor spotted us and all three of them were standing in front of us in seconds.
“Hello guys” I smiled, “what’s up?”
“What’s up with Max?” Jor asked quickly, “he barely said a word to anyone tonight”
“I know as much as you do” I sighed, “he’s been acting strange since his dad called earlier today, before practice”
“He never said anything?”
“Notta” I replied.
Just then, Max came in with Fleury and spotted us.
“Hey” he said.
“Can I talk to you?” I asked him before he could say anything else.
He just nodded and we moved outside the door.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“What are you talking about?”
“Max, this is the most you’ve spoken to me today, to your teammates…what happened?” I crossed my arms and shifted my weight to one foot. He never lied to me, he had no reason to.
“Julie…” he began, “my dad doesn’t want us to be together…”
“Ok…well that doesn’t surprise me. But you told him we were staying together…right?”
He just looked down at the ground and didn’t respond. I just looked at him, letting out a shaky breath, “what did you tell him?” I asked quietly.
“I told him I would work it out with Liz. To save our marriage”
My heart dropped at the very words, “you--you wh-what?”
“Julie” he said moving closer.
I stepped back, “Don’t. Please tell me you were lying to him Max”
He just shook his head.
“Your going back to her?”
He just nodded.
“Don’t just stand there Max, say something!” my eyes were welling up with tears.
“Julie, my parents raised me to be a man of integrity, to be trustworthy, loyal…”
“Well I’m pretty sure that’s been shot to hell Max” I snapped.
“Julie, I’m doing this for your own good. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who will treat you with respect, who isn’t married”
“Max, I don’t want anybody else, don’t you get that! I only want you. Who will help me with this baby?” I was almost in hysterics. I couldn’t believe he was doing this to me, now! My heart was shattering into pieces, and all he was doing was stomping all over the pieces, he didn’t care.
“I’ll help you” he said, “but I can’t leave her like that. It’s not fair”
I didn’t reply I just sniffed back a few more tears and darted past him. Trying to find my sister. Instead I found Jordan.
“Where’s Ally?” I asked, still in tears.
“What’s wrong?” he asked suddenly with concern in his voice.
“It’s nothing” I replied wiping my eyes, “I just need to find Ally”
“I don’t know. I saw her leave with someone, but I didn’t catch who it was”
“Fuck, I must have missed her when I was outside” I said under my breath.
I grabbed my phone and dialled her number quickly. There was no answer and suddenly I broke into another stream of tears. Jordan was suddenly behind me and caught me before I could fall over. I cried in his chest, for I don’t know how long. Finally I pulled back and wiped my eyes.
“Julie, breathe. What’s going on?”
“Max is leaving me to go back to Liz. I can’t find my little sister, and I’m pregnant” I said, “Everything hurts right now”
I looked up at him and Jordan was glaring in front of him, I turned around and saw Max.
“Don’t you get near me” I cried, “Go back to your wife who you’re apparently so happy with”
I walked past him and he grabbed my arm. Jordan jerked forward to help but I stopped him, “it’s fine Jor” I said pulling my arm away from him, “I can handle myself” I just glared at Max.
“Julie, I know where Ally is” Max said.
I just looked at him funny, “well?”
“I saw her leave with Kris”
“Kris? Letang? Engaged Kris?”
He just nodded.
“He is a fucking dead man” I snapped going towards the door.
The Penguins were gone on a road trip and my sister Ally was here for the weekend. Only the weekend. I knew if she stayed any longer, she would beg to meet some of the guys. I’m not stupid. I know how beautiful she is and I know some of those guys will pounce the moment they get the chance.
“How’s your sister?” Max asked over the phone.
“Good, I think she’s bored though” I sighed, “I’ve done everything but take her to one of your games, well, because you guys are gone”
“Well how long is she around?” he asked as I heard noises in the background.
“She leaves tomorrow” I said.
“Well, we have a game on Tuesday, tell her to stay and see a game”
“No” I said quickly.
“Why not?” he asked with confusion in his voice.
“Max” I said quietly moving to the other room, “I’m not getting her near your team, I don’t want her going through what I’m going through”
“How old is she Julie?”
“21”
“I think she can take care of herself”
“She’s still my little sister Max”
“I know, but give her some credit, she’s an adult, I think she can think for herself”
“Oh what do you know?” I huffed sitting on the bed.
He just laughed, “love you too”
“I’ll let you go” I sighed, “see you Tuesday”
“See you then”
I hung up and moved back to where Ally was slumped on the couch flipping through channels. I just sat beside her and watched as she didn’t budge.
“Um, so question for you” I said as she turned her eyes towards mine.
“Yes?”
“Well, how about staying a few more days?” I asked, “Max wants you to come to the game on Tuesday and I can send you back the next morning”
“Really?!” her tone suddenly changed.
“Yes” I smiled, “you can meet Max…and some of the guys” I mumbled the last part.
“You’re kidding right?”
“No” I smirked.
“I. Love. You” she said giving me a huge hug.
“Love you too” I replied, “but can I just warn you, be careful, please. I don’t want something happening with you like it did with me”
“Yah, yah” she said texting.
“Ally” I said snatching her phone, “I don’t think you know how serious I am”
“I’ll be careful” she sighed, “Now give me my phone please?” she had her arms crossed and a serious look on her face.
“Thank you” I replied handing it back to her.
I know Ally. I know that this wasn’t going to be that easy. Flirting with some of the guys was one thing, but for some reason I can just picture one of those guys saying something to her and they end up disappearing. I just want what’s best for my sister. Is that so wrong?
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Tuesday finally came and I woke up with Max next to me. I guess he must have come in late last night. I just smiled, watching him sleep. He must be exhausted. The Pens have been really busy the past little while, but they have been winning games which is what counts. It was coming up to April, but we all knew they were making the playoffs, they were, 4th in the conference, with the Devils just ahead of them. I had a good feeling about this season, especially since they were so close last year, but the Wings sadly came out on top.
I gently got up, trying not to wake him, I suddenly felt sick to my stomach and once again had my head in the toilet. It’s only been a week and I’m already tired of this. I stood up and brushed my teeth, I moved back into the room, he was sitting against the headboard and a small smirk appeared on his face when he saw me.
“What?” I said looking down at myself then back at him.
“Nothing” he said still smirking.
“Don’t start, I’m not in the mood” I sighed sitting beside him.
“You’re going to get through this Julie, I promise” he said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.
“Yah I know” I sighed.
In the midst of the perfect silence, my phone rang. Way to ruin the moment. I picked it up seeing a familiar number. Price.
“What?” I answered.
“Hey to you too” he replied.
“Sorry, I’m moody” I said, “what’s up?”
“I’ve been meaning to talk to you, I saw you and his wife going at it” he chuckled, “didn’t know you had it in you”
“Thanks” I smirked.
“Are you ok?”
“I’m perfectly fine, why?”
“Cause you don’t sound too healthy” he replied. My voice was hoarse from throwing up.
“Oh” I paused, I wasn’t sure if it was right to tell him or not, “I’m fine”
“Ok, if you're sure”
“I’ll talk to you later, k?”
“Alright, see you”
I hung up the phone and gently set it on the end table.
“Who was it?” he asked.
“Price” I replied.
I saw his jaw clench a little as he diverted his attention downward.
“Hey” I said putting my hand on his cheek, “he’s a friend, just checking in after what happened”
He relaxed and looked back at me, “sorry”
“Stop being so jealous” I joked.
“I have no one to be jealous of” he smirked.
I just kissed him gently as his phone went off. He turned to answer it and frowned at the name.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“My dad…”
“Go talk to him” I said pushing him off the bed.
He weakly smiled and answered the phone. He moved to another room, like I could understand half the things they would talk about anyways.
He finished talking with him and I was already dressed in a simple long white t-shirt with a long black open flap vest and a pair of black leggings.
“Everything ok?” I asked.
“Fine” he simply said.
He didn’t look like he was in a great mood, so I didn’t pester him about it. He left for practice without another word. I was a little nervous that something was up.
I moved to the kitchen where Ally was and just sat across the table from her.
“Met Max” she said, “cranky…”
“Yah, his dad called, he didn’t say much to me afterwards either” I sighed, “I’m hoping everything’s alright”
“I’m sure all is well” she smiled looking back down at the newspaper.
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The game went fine, they beat Atlanta 5-2. I got a text from Max saying he’d meet us at Diesel, so Ally and I decided to leave. We entered the building, the loud building and sat up by the bar. I wasn’t allowed to drink, but Ally ordered herself something as we chatted for a bit.
After a while, I saw a few players streaming in. Like Sid, Jor and Kris. Jor spotted us and all three of them were standing in front of us in seconds.
“Hello guys” I smiled, “what’s up?”
“What’s up with Max?” Jor asked quickly, “he barely said a word to anyone tonight”
“I know as much as you do” I sighed, “he’s been acting strange since his dad called earlier today, before practice”
“He never said anything?”
“Notta” I replied.
Just then, Max came in with Fleury and spotted us.
“Hey” he said.
“Can I talk to you?” I asked him before he could say anything else.
He just nodded and we moved outside the door.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“What are you talking about?”
“Max, this is the most you’ve spoken to me today, to your teammates…what happened?” I crossed my arms and shifted my weight to one foot. He never lied to me, he had no reason to.
“Julie…” he began, “my dad doesn’t want us to be together…”
“Ok…well that doesn’t surprise me. But you told him we were staying together…right?”
He just looked down at the ground and didn’t respond. I just looked at him, letting out a shaky breath, “what did you tell him?” I asked quietly.
“I told him I would work it out with Liz. To save our marriage”
My heart dropped at the very words, “you--you wh-what?”
“Julie” he said moving closer.
I stepped back, “Don’t. Please tell me you were lying to him Max”
He just shook his head.
“Your going back to her?”
He just nodded.
“Don’t just stand there Max, say something!” my eyes were welling up with tears.
“Julie, my parents raised me to be a man of integrity, to be trustworthy, loyal…”
“Well I’m pretty sure that’s been shot to hell Max” I snapped.
“Julie, I’m doing this for your own good. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who will treat you with respect, who isn’t married”
“Max, I don’t want anybody else, don’t you get that! I only want you. Who will help me with this baby?” I was almost in hysterics. I couldn’t believe he was doing this to me, now! My heart was shattering into pieces, and all he was doing was stomping all over the pieces, he didn’t care.
“I’ll help you” he said, “but I can’t leave her like that. It’s not fair”
I didn’t reply I just sniffed back a few more tears and darted past him. Trying to find my sister. Instead I found Jordan.
“Where’s Ally?” I asked, still in tears.
“What’s wrong?” he asked suddenly with concern in his voice.
“It’s nothing” I replied wiping my eyes, “I just need to find Ally”
“I don’t know. I saw her leave with someone, but I didn’t catch who it was”
“Fuck, I must have missed her when I was outside” I said under my breath.
I grabbed my phone and dialled her number quickly. There was no answer and suddenly I broke into another stream of tears. Jordan was suddenly behind me and caught me before I could fall over. I cried in his chest, for I don’t know how long. Finally I pulled back and wiped my eyes.
“Julie, breathe. What’s going on?”
“Max is leaving me to go back to Liz. I can’t find my little sister, and I’m pregnant” I said, “Everything hurts right now”
I looked up at him and Jordan was glaring in front of him, I turned around and saw Max.
“Don’t you get near me” I cried, “Go back to your wife who you’re apparently so happy with”
I walked past him and he grabbed my arm. Jordan jerked forward to help but I stopped him, “it’s fine Jor” I said pulling my arm away from him, “I can handle myself” I just glared at Max.
“Julie, I know where Ally is” Max said.
I just looked at him funny, “well?”
“I saw her leave with Kris”
“Kris? Letang? Engaged Kris?”
He just nodded.
“He is a fucking dead man” I snapped going towards the door.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Chapter 9
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I woke up feeling sick to my stomach again. I raced to the bathroom, making it in time to puke out my guts, well that’s how it felt. I finally got the energy to stand up and brush my teeth.
“You ok?” Max asked sitting up on his elbows on the bed.
“Does it look like it?” I snapped.
“Ooh, hit a nerve” he said putting his hands up in defense.
“Sorry, moody” I sighed.
“Come here” he said motioning his hands to come sit next to him. I sat next to him and I put my head on his shoulder, “Max…I’m scared” I quietly said letting out a shaky breath.
“I know” he simply said wrapping his arm around my shoulder and gently squeezing me.
“I mean, eventually the press will hear about this. Then it’s hell for you again, and then I have to go through nine months of pregnancy through all of that. What if I can’t handle it? What if I can’t do this?”
He took his hand and lifted my head towards his, “you’re going to be fine. I’ll be here the entire time, you have nothing to worry about Jules”
“Don’t go anywhere” I quietly said.
“Never” he said gently kissing me. I just smiled up at him and bounced out of bed, “Oh! I need to check the scores” I said running to the living room.
I grabbed the remote turning it onto ESPN. I watched through a couple commercials when the unthinkable happened.
“How Max Talbot manages to juggle hockey and two women is beyond me. Julie Miller and Liz Talbot were found, physically fighting in a local drug store in downtown Pittsburgh. One of the cashiers managed to tape some with her cell phone”
Then it showed a video of Liz slapping me and then me punching her out. Along with a few choice words we both used.
“Max…” I looked up at him as he watched it all unfold. He was wide eyed and speechless, “Max…baby” I said gently touching his cheek. He finally snapped out of it and looked down at me. Then he turned away and went to his phone.
“Max, what are you doing?”
“Calling Liz” he said angrily dialling in her number.
“Max…don’t make this worse than it has to be”
“She is the one making this worse” he snapped.
“Max” I said grabbing the phone from his hand and hanging it up, “don’t”
He was practically shaking he was so mad, I’ve never seen him like this before.
“Julie, I’m sorry I did this to you” he sighed.
“You did nothing” I told him, “I chose you, and unfortunately…you were married. But, soon you won’t be, and this will all end. I hope”
“I will do anything I can to keep you from getting hurt again” he said putting a hand on my cheek.
“I know” I smiled, “let’s just let this incident blow over. And be careful what you say”
“I won’t say a word” he replied, “not until this whole mess is over with”
The rest of the day was the usual routine. Max went to the morning skate, he had a game tonight and they were leaving for New York tomorrow. I just cleaned my apartment, which I hadn’t been paying much attention to lately. I did everything I could to keep from going out. I knew I would have to eventually, the fridge was empty.
I grabbed a pair of black yoga pants and black hoodie. I grabbed a ball cap from the closet, Max’s, just a white one with the Penguins logo. I really didn’t want anyone recognizing me, and I was paranoid about running into Liz again. I put on my black uggs, grabbed my keys and was out the door.
I was quick through the store, grabbing the basics, milk, bread and a few extra things that were needed. I got to the cash, anxious as she rang everything through. I kept my head down as much as possible. She gave me the total and I handed her the cash.
“Hey, aren’t you--”
“Don’t” I said cutting her off, “that’s how it happened the last time”
“Sorry” she replied handing me my change, “if it’s any consolation, the wife seems like a bitch” she whispered.
I just chuckled, “Thanks”
I grabbed my few bags and put them in the backseat of the car, getting home as quickly as I could. I set my things on the table and saw a note.
“Hey, was hoping to catch you before you before I left for the game. Your sister called the apartment. Talk to you tonight. Love, Max”
I just smiled as I read it. This whole thing was turning out different than I expected. He didn’t go back to Liz, I’m having a baby, and I’m completely happy. The only thing that could ruin this is the press, how I hate them, even though I used to be one of them. Maybe losing that job was for the best.
I grabbed my phone and called my sister back quickly. She wanted to come down. I wanted her to come down too. I missed her like crazy and I really needed her here right now. She planned on coming down this weekend, which is actually convenient, all the players should be gone, road trip. I don’t want her getting involved with them, I didn’t want her ending up in the kind of mess I was in…I will do anything in my power to keep that from happening to her.
I woke up feeling sick to my stomach again. I raced to the bathroom, making it in time to puke out my guts, well that’s how it felt. I finally got the energy to stand up and brush my teeth.
“You ok?” Max asked sitting up on his elbows on the bed.
“Does it look like it?” I snapped.
“Ooh, hit a nerve” he said putting his hands up in defense.
“Sorry, moody” I sighed.
“Come here” he said motioning his hands to come sit next to him. I sat next to him and I put my head on his shoulder, “Max…I’m scared” I quietly said letting out a shaky breath.
“I know” he simply said wrapping his arm around my shoulder and gently squeezing me.
“I mean, eventually the press will hear about this. Then it’s hell for you again, and then I have to go through nine months of pregnancy through all of that. What if I can’t handle it? What if I can’t do this?”
He took his hand and lifted my head towards his, “you’re going to be fine. I’ll be here the entire time, you have nothing to worry about Jules”
“Don’t go anywhere” I quietly said.
“Never” he said gently kissing me. I just smiled up at him and bounced out of bed, “Oh! I need to check the scores” I said running to the living room.
I grabbed the remote turning it onto ESPN. I watched through a couple commercials when the unthinkable happened.
“How Max Talbot manages to juggle hockey and two women is beyond me. Julie Miller and Liz Talbot were found, physically fighting in a local drug store in downtown Pittsburgh. One of the cashiers managed to tape some with her cell phone”
Then it showed a video of Liz slapping me and then me punching her out. Along with a few choice words we both used.
“Max…” I looked up at him as he watched it all unfold. He was wide eyed and speechless, “Max…baby” I said gently touching his cheek. He finally snapped out of it and looked down at me. Then he turned away and went to his phone.
“Max, what are you doing?”
“Calling Liz” he said angrily dialling in her number.
“Max…don’t make this worse than it has to be”
“She is the one making this worse” he snapped.
“Max” I said grabbing the phone from his hand and hanging it up, “don’t”
He was practically shaking he was so mad, I’ve never seen him like this before.
“Julie, I’m sorry I did this to you” he sighed.
“You did nothing” I told him, “I chose you, and unfortunately…you were married. But, soon you won’t be, and this will all end. I hope”
“I will do anything I can to keep you from getting hurt again” he said putting a hand on my cheek.
“I know” I smiled, “let’s just let this incident blow over. And be careful what you say”
“I won’t say a word” he replied, “not until this whole mess is over with”
The rest of the day was the usual routine. Max went to the morning skate, he had a game tonight and they were leaving for New York tomorrow. I just cleaned my apartment, which I hadn’t been paying much attention to lately. I did everything I could to keep from going out. I knew I would have to eventually, the fridge was empty.
I grabbed a pair of black yoga pants and black hoodie. I grabbed a ball cap from the closet, Max’s, just a white one with the Penguins logo. I really didn’t want anyone recognizing me, and I was paranoid about running into Liz again. I put on my black uggs, grabbed my keys and was out the door.
I was quick through the store, grabbing the basics, milk, bread and a few extra things that were needed. I got to the cash, anxious as she rang everything through. I kept my head down as much as possible. She gave me the total and I handed her the cash.
“Hey, aren’t you--”
“Don’t” I said cutting her off, “that’s how it happened the last time”
“Sorry” she replied handing me my change, “if it’s any consolation, the wife seems like a bitch” she whispered.
I just chuckled, “Thanks”
I grabbed my few bags and put them in the backseat of the car, getting home as quickly as I could. I set my things on the table and saw a note.
“Hey, was hoping to catch you before you before I left for the game. Your sister called the apartment. Talk to you tonight. Love, Max”
I just smiled as I read it. This whole thing was turning out different than I expected. He didn’t go back to Liz, I’m having a baby, and I’m completely happy. The only thing that could ruin this is the press, how I hate them, even though I used to be one of them. Maybe losing that job was for the best.
I grabbed my phone and called my sister back quickly. She wanted to come down. I wanted her to come down too. I missed her like crazy and I really needed her here right now. She planned on coming down this weekend, which is actually convenient, all the players should be gone, road trip. I don’t want her getting involved with them, I didn’t want her ending up in the kind of mess I was in…I will do anything in my power to keep that from happening to her.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Chapter 8
*I was a bit skeptical in posting this. I wasn't sure if it was up to par with my usual. But I decided to anyways, I haven't posted one for this story in a while. I hope you guys enjoy. And remember, commmmmentssss, or no more chapters. Thanks guys!*
I woke up the next morning and smiled as I saw Max beside me. He was out late last night after the big win against the Canadiens. I didn’t see any of the game, I was asleep pretty early. It was the first night I actually got a decent sleep in a while. As I stood up my head got a bit spinny and my stomach turned. I ran to the bathroom and threw up, it was not pretty. I stood back up, still woozy and washed my face and mouth. I still felt like crap and went back towards my bed, Max was already up.
“That didn’t sound good” he said with concern in his voice.
I sat back into bed and pulled the covers up, “I don’t feel so good”
He immediately sat back, “should I be careful?”
“You’ll be fine, I’m sure it’s nothing” I sighed.
“Well I have practice” he said standing up, “I’ll see you after?”
I just nodded as he gently kissed my forehead.
All day I felt awful, I finally got the energy to get up and eat something, I was actually starving and my head was throbbing. I had some cereal and actually felt a tad bit better. I curled up on the couch and watched “You’ve Got Mail” it was a classic, I adored it. It was around 3ish when Max finally came in the door.
“Hey” I said still watching the movie.
“Hey, feeling better?” he said kissing my forehead and walking towards the shower.
“Yes. Good practice?” I asked him.
“I suppose” he replied from the other room, “they asked about Price…again”
“Again?” I asked, when did they ask about him before?
I saw him walk back into the living room with just shorts on. He just looked at me.
“What?”
“Did you see any of the highlights Jules?” he asked.
“None” I replied, “I mostly slept this morning”
“Well, the two of us got into a shouting match, and there was a couple shoves, I got a penalty, which they scored on. After the game they asked me all this shit about Price and whether anything was mentioned about you in our “tussle” if you will” I just smirked as he finished.
“What?” he asked.
“You’re cute when your annoyed” I laughed.
“Well I pride myself on looking good in any mood” he said with a proud smile.
“Wow, you have a big ego” I joked.
“Well thanks” he said sarcastically.
He went back to shower and I stayed in my spot on the couch. I finished my movie and switched over to watch the highlights of the game. I watched to see if Price had anything to say, but it didn’t even look like they talked to him. I wanted to call him, but I would just feel stupid. I stood up to make the effort to take a drive, but my head got spinny again and I sat back down.
“You ok?” Max asked coming into the room.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me” I told him.
“Why don’t you just relax, all this stress probably isn’t helping” he told me.
“I suppose” I replied.
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For the past few days I was still feeling awful. Max was gone away for a few days on the road as it was getting closer and closer to the playoffs. I was getting suspicious as the symptoms were getting more obvious, was I pregnant? I decided to find out.
I changed into a pair of stretchy yoga pants and black hoodie over my Penguins t-shirt. I pulled my hair into a low ponytail as the curls fell down my face. I put on some makeup to hide the tiredness, it showed. I shoved my feet into my black uggs and grabbed my phone and keys.
I drove myself to the drug store without any problems, the fresh air for once was doing me some good. I walked in and quickly grabbed a pregnancy test. I subtly brought it to the cash and tried to get out of there as quickly as possible. That didn’t happen.
“You look really familiar” the cashier said.
I snapped my head up and glanced around, “oh really?”
“Yah” she said, “but I can’t seem to put a name to the face”
“Oh that’s too bad” I said quickly digging for money.
She told me the price and I handed her the exact change.
“Wait…” she said looking at me one last time, “you’re Julie Miller”
Shit, the cat’s out of the bag.
“I think you have me confused with someone else” I lied smiling nervously.
“No, you’re Julie, I saw the pictures, unless you have a twin somewhere”
“You’re Julie?” I heard a soft voice from behind me.
I turned to see a tall blonde, with green eyes, beautiful, she looked like someone out of a movie. Perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect everything.
“Maybe” I quietly said.
“I’m…Liz” she said it calmly. I almost passed out right there.
“You’re…her…” I had no idea what I was supposed to say.
“You’re…her” she repeated me.
“Yah…”
“I see you might be…” she couldn’t finish it, I’m surprised she hasn’t attacked me yet.
“Possibly…but I don’t know for sure” I said looking down at the ground.
“Are you happy now?” she asked bitterly.
“Excuse me?” I said shooting my head up.
“You’ve ruined my marriage, my life and our happiness”
“Liz…don’t start, I just want to go home…I feel like shit”
“As you should” she was starting to get angrier.
“I meant physically, so just leave me alone”
I tried to walk out but she grabbed my arm and swung me around. Are you serious, Malibu Barbie wants to fight? No thanks.
“Fuck off Liz, if I am pregnant, I’d rather not lose it when it’s barely weeks old”
“Like I care if you lose that baby. That baby should be mine” she said shoving me. My head started to spin and I grabbed onto a nearby post.
“I told you” I said weakly, “just leave me alone”
She wouldn’t let up and took the back of her hand and slapped me across the face. Okay, now she was asking for it. I balled my hand into a fist and used all my energy and punched her square in the jaw and then fell back, almost passing out. A lady ran over and helped me stand up.
“You ok sweetie?” she asked me looking over at Liz, “from what I heard she was being a bitch” she said that last part a bit quieter.
“Not really” I said putting my hand on my face, one of her nails put a huge gash across my right cheek, “I just need to go home. Just keep her away from me” I pointed towards Liz.
She just nodded and responded, “You don’t look so good, maybe you should get to the hospital dear”
“I’m ok, I’m just going home, I need sleep”
“Be careful” she said with worry in her voice.
“Thanks” I smiled back at her.
I drove home and made it without any issues. I walked into the house and threw my phone and keys on the coffee table and went to the washroom. I looked in the mirror as the gash felt worse than it looked. If Max were to find out about this he would go ballistic. I cleaned up the cut, but it was still pretty obvious, there wasn’t much I could do. Max was back tomorrow and this wasn’t going to heal that fast. I gave up and looked in the white plastic bag for the test I just bought.
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Minutes past and they felt like hours as I sat on the floor against the bathtub. My mind was going through so many possibilities. Right now, it would be a blessing if I wasn’t pregnant, but all the signs pointed otherwise, and that scared me.
Finally, it was ready and I quickly jumped up to look. Positive. Oh joy, this was going to go over well with Max. Do you seriously think that this is going to help on the stress of the playoffs and Liz breathing down his neck? I doubt it. How was I supposed to tell him?
I jumped into a warm shower to see if it would help me feel any better. Physically it did, but emotionally, not so much. Every second that got closer to him coming terrified me more. I was afraid of his reaction, what if he was to leave? What if he went back to her? I mean, she’s gorgeous, why would he ever leave someone like that….for me? Why would he want a child…with me? It just didn’t make sense.
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We had a 30 second phone conversation so he could tell me he was back in Pittsburgh and on his way back. My stomach felt like it was going to explode, my hands wouldn’t stop shaking and my mind was filled with negativity, I hated how he did this to me.
I waited. It felt like hours, but it was only 20 minutes when he finally walked in the door. I smiled at the sight of him and stood up to greet him.
“Hey” he said putting his hand on my cheek and kissing my forehead, “wait”. He looked down at my face and saw the gash Liz had left not 24 hours ago.
“What happened?” he said looking at me with worry in his eyes.
“I had a run in with your wife” I replied.
“How did she know?”
“I was at the drug store and the cashier recognized me, Liz was right behind me”
“Are you ok?” he asked putting both hands on my cheeks this time.
“Don’t worry, I’m more worried about how you’re feeling, I know your temper” I said taking both his hands, “don’t do anything you’ll regret, it could make things worse”
“I won’t” he said, “but you’re ok?”
“I’m fine, but I have something I need to tell you” I replied, getting more nervous by the second.
“What is it?”
“Max, I’m pregnant” I said it bluntly, but quickly. I moved back in anticipation of his reaction. I think he was shocked at first but he wrapped me in a hug and spun me around. I was in shock myself.
“That’s amazing” he said putting me down.
“Seriously?” I asked in shock.
“Why wouldn’t it be?” he could barely contain himself.
“I thought this would add more stress to everything”
“You worry too much” he said, “you need to change that, or you’re going to get too stressed to carry this child”
“Ok…I’ll relax, I guess” I said, I was really confused.
“So what happened with Liz?” he asked, he was interested.
“Long story short, she got pissed, I tried to leave…multiple times, I felt like shit, I almost passed out but she still had it in her to bitch slap me and I punched her in the jaw” I said quickly.
He just looked at me with confusion and let out a light chuckle, “you punched her?”
“You sound surprised” I said moving back to the couch.
“I just never thought of you punching someone” he said.
“I think you brought out the feistier side of me” I said patting his leg as he sat down.
He looked down at my hand and saw the bruise, “well I guess this is proof”
“You better believe it” I said putting my head on his shoulder.
“Julie…I don’t know how I would have gotten through any of this without you” he sighed.
“Same here” I said looking up at him, “I think we can get through this Max”
“I think so too”
I fell more in love with him every single day. I didn’t think it was possible. Sometimes he still gave me butterflies, he still made me weak in the knees and he still consumed my every thought. Right now…nothing was going to ruin this, not if I have any say in it.
I woke up the next morning and smiled as I saw Max beside me. He was out late last night after the big win against the Canadiens. I didn’t see any of the game, I was asleep pretty early. It was the first night I actually got a decent sleep in a while. As I stood up my head got a bit spinny and my stomach turned. I ran to the bathroom and threw up, it was not pretty. I stood back up, still woozy and washed my face and mouth. I still felt like crap and went back towards my bed, Max was already up.
“That didn’t sound good” he said with concern in his voice.
I sat back into bed and pulled the covers up, “I don’t feel so good”
He immediately sat back, “should I be careful?”
“You’ll be fine, I’m sure it’s nothing” I sighed.
“Well I have practice” he said standing up, “I’ll see you after?”
I just nodded as he gently kissed my forehead.
All day I felt awful, I finally got the energy to get up and eat something, I was actually starving and my head was throbbing. I had some cereal and actually felt a tad bit better. I curled up on the couch and watched “You’ve Got Mail” it was a classic, I adored it. It was around 3ish when Max finally came in the door.
“Hey” I said still watching the movie.
“Hey, feeling better?” he said kissing my forehead and walking towards the shower.
“Yes. Good practice?” I asked him.
“I suppose” he replied from the other room, “they asked about Price…again”
“Again?” I asked, when did they ask about him before?
I saw him walk back into the living room with just shorts on. He just looked at me.
“What?”
“Did you see any of the highlights Jules?” he asked.
“None” I replied, “I mostly slept this morning”
“Well, the two of us got into a shouting match, and there was a couple shoves, I got a penalty, which they scored on. After the game they asked me all this shit about Price and whether anything was mentioned about you in our “tussle” if you will” I just smirked as he finished.
“What?” he asked.
“You’re cute when your annoyed” I laughed.
“Well I pride myself on looking good in any mood” he said with a proud smile.
“Wow, you have a big ego” I joked.
“Well thanks” he said sarcastically.
He went back to shower and I stayed in my spot on the couch. I finished my movie and switched over to watch the highlights of the game. I watched to see if Price had anything to say, but it didn’t even look like they talked to him. I wanted to call him, but I would just feel stupid. I stood up to make the effort to take a drive, but my head got spinny again and I sat back down.
“You ok?” Max asked coming into the room.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me” I told him.
“Why don’t you just relax, all this stress probably isn’t helping” he told me.
“I suppose” I replied.
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For the past few days I was still feeling awful. Max was gone away for a few days on the road as it was getting closer and closer to the playoffs. I was getting suspicious as the symptoms were getting more obvious, was I pregnant? I decided to find out.
I changed into a pair of stretchy yoga pants and black hoodie over my Penguins t-shirt. I pulled my hair into a low ponytail as the curls fell down my face. I put on some makeup to hide the tiredness, it showed. I shoved my feet into my black uggs and grabbed my phone and keys.
I drove myself to the drug store without any problems, the fresh air for once was doing me some good. I walked in and quickly grabbed a pregnancy test. I subtly brought it to the cash and tried to get out of there as quickly as possible. That didn’t happen.
“You look really familiar” the cashier said.
I snapped my head up and glanced around, “oh really?”
“Yah” she said, “but I can’t seem to put a name to the face”
“Oh that’s too bad” I said quickly digging for money.
She told me the price and I handed her the exact change.
“Wait…” she said looking at me one last time, “you’re Julie Miller”
Shit, the cat’s out of the bag.
“I think you have me confused with someone else” I lied smiling nervously.
“No, you’re Julie, I saw the pictures, unless you have a twin somewhere”
“You’re Julie?” I heard a soft voice from behind me.
I turned to see a tall blonde, with green eyes, beautiful, she looked like someone out of a movie. Perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect everything.
“Maybe” I quietly said.
“I’m…Liz” she said it calmly. I almost passed out right there.
“You’re…her…” I had no idea what I was supposed to say.
“You’re…her” she repeated me.
“Yah…”
“I see you might be…” she couldn’t finish it, I’m surprised she hasn’t attacked me yet.
“Possibly…but I don’t know for sure” I said looking down at the ground.
“Are you happy now?” she asked bitterly.
“Excuse me?” I said shooting my head up.
“You’ve ruined my marriage, my life and our happiness”
“Liz…don’t start, I just want to go home…I feel like shit”
“As you should” she was starting to get angrier.
“I meant physically, so just leave me alone”
I tried to walk out but she grabbed my arm and swung me around. Are you serious, Malibu Barbie wants to fight? No thanks.
“Fuck off Liz, if I am pregnant, I’d rather not lose it when it’s barely weeks old”
“Like I care if you lose that baby. That baby should be mine” she said shoving me. My head started to spin and I grabbed onto a nearby post.
“I told you” I said weakly, “just leave me alone”
She wouldn’t let up and took the back of her hand and slapped me across the face. Okay, now she was asking for it. I balled my hand into a fist and used all my energy and punched her square in the jaw and then fell back, almost passing out. A lady ran over and helped me stand up.
“You ok sweetie?” she asked me looking over at Liz, “from what I heard she was being a bitch” she said that last part a bit quieter.
“Not really” I said putting my hand on my face, one of her nails put a huge gash across my right cheek, “I just need to go home. Just keep her away from me” I pointed towards Liz.
She just nodded and responded, “You don’t look so good, maybe you should get to the hospital dear”
“I’m ok, I’m just going home, I need sleep”
“Be careful” she said with worry in her voice.
“Thanks” I smiled back at her.
I drove home and made it without any issues. I walked into the house and threw my phone and keys on the coffee table and went to the washroom. I looked in the mirror as the gash felt worse than it looked. If Max were to find out about this he would go ballistic. I cleaned up the cut, but it was still pretty obvious, there wasn’t much I could do. Max was back tomorrow and this wasn’t going to heal that fast. I gave up and looked in the white plastic bag for the test I just bought.
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Minutes past and they felt like hours as I sat on the floor against the bathtub. My mind was going through so many possibilities. Right now, it would be a blessing if I wasn’t pregnant, but all the signs pointed otherwise, and that scared me.
Finally, it was ready and I quickly jumped up to look. Positive. Oh joy, this was going to go over well with Max. Do you seriously think that this is going to help on the stress of the playoffs and Liz breathing down his neck? I doubt it. How was I supposed to tell him?
I jumped into a warm shower to see if it would help me feel any better. Physically it did, but emotionally, not so much. Every second that got closer to him coming terrified me more. I was afraid of his reaction, what if he was to leave? What if he went back to her? I mean, she’s gorgeous, why would he ever leave someone like that….for me? Why would he want a child…with me? It just didn’t make sense.
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We had a 30 second phone conversation so he could tell me he was back in Pittsburgh and on his way back. My stomach felt like it was going to explode, my hands wouldn’t stop shaking and my mind was filled with negativity, I hated how he did this to me.
I waited. It felt like hours, but it was only 20 minutes when he finally walked in the door. I smiled at the sight of him and stood up to greet him.
“Hey” he said putting his hand on my cheek and kissing my forehead, “wait”. He looked down at my face and saw the gash Liz had left not 24 hours ago.
“What happened?” he said looking at me with worry in his eyes.
“I had a run in with your wife” I replied.
“How did she know?”
“I was at the drug store and the cashier recognized me, Liz was right behind me”
“Are you ok?” he asked putting both hands on my cheeks this time.
“Don’t worry, I’m more worried about how you’re feeling, I know your temper” I said taking both his hands, “don’t do anything you’ll regret, it could make things worse”
“I won’t” he said, “but you’re ok?”
“I’m fine, but I have something I need to tell you” I replied, getting more nervous by the second.
“What is it?”
“Max, I’m pregnant” I said it bluntly, but quickly. I moved back in anticipation of his reaction. I think he was shocked at first but he wrapped me in a hug and spun me around. I was in shock myself.
“That’s amazing” he said putting me down.
“Seriously?” I asked in shock.
“Why wouldn’t it be?” he could barely contain himself.
“I thought this would add more stress to everything”
“You worry too much” he said, “you need to change that, or you’re going to get too stressed to carry this child”
“Ok…I’ll relax, I guess” I said, I was really confused.
“So what happened with Liz?” he asked, he was interested.
“Long story short, she got pissed, I tried to leave…multiple times, I felt like shit, I almost passed out but she still had it in her to bitch slap me and I punched her in the jaw” I said quickly.
He just looked at me with confusion and let out a light chuckle, “you punched her?”
“You sound surprised” I said moving back to the couch.
“I just never thought of you punching someone” he said.
“I think you brought out the feistier side of me” I said patting his leg as he sat down.
He looked down at my hand and saw the bruise, “well I guess this is proof”
“You better believe it” I said putting my head on his shoulder.
“Julie…I don’t know how I would have gotten through any of this without you” he sighed.
“Same here” I said looking up at him, “I think we can get through this Max”
“I think so too”
I fell more in love with him every single day. I didn’t think it was possible. Sometimes he still gave me butterflies, he still made me weak in the knees and he still consumed my every thought. Right now…nothing was going to ruin this, not if I have any say in it.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Chapter 7
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*Julie's POV*
So he isn't back yet. But I wonder if he's seen it. There must be a way to keep him from seeing it. Right? Or maybe I should just tell him, I need to be honest with him. I never even told him about Price in the first place...
I turned as I heard the door open. I saw him greet me with a warm smile and gave him a hug.
"Everything alright?" he asked.
"No" I simply said.
"What happened?" he asked.
I just pulled away and turned on the tv. They would still have the headline I'm sure. I was right. He just stared at the tv, and I stared at him.
"What's this about Julie?" he asked quietly.
"He's my ex..." I said.
"And you decided to tell me this when?" he was starting to get louder.
"I didn't think it made a big deal. It was a long time ago Max. When I was living in Montreal. I hadn't even known who you freaking were, so forgive me if I forgot to mention a past boyfriend who means nothing to me now" that last part might have been a lie...
"Then why the hell was he here?" he was starting to get snappy.
"He said he needed closure"
"Did he get it?"
"No because he fucking lied!" I shouted, "he tried to get me back"
"And?"
"Well what does it look like?! Do I look like I went back to him?" I've never fought with him like this before.
"Don't be a smart ass Julie. Do you want him back or not?"
"Not" I said quickly, "I love you"
"Do you love him?"
"Excuse me?"
"Julie...you heard what I said" he replied calmly.
"No" I lied, "no feelings whatsoever. I'll be friends with him if anything"
I don't know if he believed me or not. I just stared at him as he put together his thoughts, and I put together mine. There was something I left out...the kiss. Should I tell him? I don't know...
He was silent most of the evening. I really didn't understand him sometimes. He drove me nuts. He didn't talk things out, he thought about them on his own, normally it wasn't that big of a deal, but when it had to do with someone that still loves me, and tried to take me away...the fact he won't talk about it...bothered me. I tried to confront him about it.
"Max, we have to talk about this" I said breaking the silence that was our afternoon.
"What else is there to say?" he said, "Do you have something else to say?"
I stared at him, his dark eyes were cold, I wanted to tell him about the kiss, but I couldn't bring myself to let it out.
"No" I sighed, "nothing else"
"Ok"
"Don't you think you should be sleeping? You have a game tonight"
"I can't sleep right now" he said, "but can I just be left alone now. We can talk later"
I just nodded and started to leave the room when my phone vibrated on the table in front of him. I turned and looked at him then at the phone then back at him.
"Who is it?" he asked.
I moved towards my phone and picked it up, "it's him"
"More pleading?" he said.
"Fuck Max just let it go, it's nothing" I snapped moving to my room.
"What?" I said answering.
"Are you ok?"
"Price do you have something to say, because if not I would rather not talk to you right now"
"So you saw it?" he said.
"Yes" I replied, "Max is pissed at me. Now the media will be bothering him AGAIN about this, I'm fed up with all this drama"
"Why are you with him if he's causing you all this crap?" he asked.
"It's not him" I snapped, "it's everything that comes with him. I love him Price, but not what comes along with loving him"
"I'm not going to repeat my feelings for you again Julie, you know what they are, and if I would be so lucky as to have them returned from you, I would be the happiest guy alive, but if not, I suppose I need to give it up"
I just sighed. I realized that I love Max with my whole heart and soul, but Price, the moment I saw his face again, I knew the love was still there for him. I also knew that if I went back to Price, it would just cause more pain and drama for Max and if I stayed with Max, yes...Price would be hurt, but it would not do near the damage it would to Max. I think I've made the choice...
"Price. I know it's going to hurt, but I can't leave him. He already left his wife, and it was posted all over the media, and if I went back to you, it would cause alot more damage to him than it would for you...I will admit, when I saw you, I know the feelings were still there, but he's the one my heart belongs to and I can't bring myself to do that. Let's just end this before it gets any worse...please, for me"
There was silence on the other end. I wanted to know what he was thinking. He sighed and was silent still, he must have been thinking of what to say.
"Ok" he said, "I would never take you away from something that makes you this happy. Even if it does hurt"
"Thank you" I sighed, "we'll stay in contact though, right?"
"Of course. Goodbye Julie"
"Bye Price"
I hung up and breathed a sigh of relief. I felt so much better, but I needed to talk to Max, I needed to straighten this out, I didn't like being mad at him. I opened the door and saw him leaning against the wall, arms crossed.
"So it's done?" he said.
"It's you Max, no one else" I said quietly.
He was silent, I just bit my lip and looked down at the floor. I felt his hand come under my chin and he tilted my head towards him. I just looked into his eyes, which were warm again.
"I feel like I'm hurting you" he said.
"You would never hurt me" I whispered.
"It looks like you're hurting" he replied, "this whole thing is my fault"
"No" I said, "I chose you because I wouldn't be whole without you Max...and you chose me..." I couldn't finish the sentence.
"Because I would be completely empty without you" he finished.
I just smiled and he gently pulled me into a hug, "this needs to end" I sighed.
"It will, let's just take it a day at a time" he whispered.
"Ok" I said.
I believed him. There was no reason not to.
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And there's no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
Cause only you can love me this way
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*Julie's POV*
So he isn't back yet. But I wonder if he's seen it. There must be a way to keep him from seeing it. Right? Or maybe I should just tell him, I need to be honest with him. I never even told him about Price in the first place...
I turned as I heard the door open. I saw him greet me with a warm smile and gave him a hug.
"Everything alright?" he asked.
"No" I simply said.
"What happened?" he asked.
I just pulled away and turned on the tv. They would still have the headline I'm sure. I was right. He just stared at the tv, and I stared at him.
"What's this about Julie?" he asked quietly.
"He's my ex..." I said.
"And you decided to tell me this when?" he was starting to get louder.
"I didn't think it made a big deal. It was a long time ago Max. When I was living in Montreal. I hadn't even known who you freaking were, so forgive me if I forgot to mention a past boyfriend who means nothing to me now" that last part might have been a lie...
"Then why the hell was he here?" he was starting to get snappy.
"He said he needed closure"
"Did he get it?"
"No because he fucking lied!" I shouted, "he tried to get me back"
"And?"
"Well what does it look like?! Do I look like I went back to him?" I've never fought with him like this before.
"Don't be a smart ass Julie. Do you want him back or not?"
"Not" I said quickly, "I love you"
"Do you love him?"
"Excuse me?"
"Julie...you heard what I said" he replied calmly.
"No" I lied, "no feelings whatsoever. I'll be friends with him if anything"
I don't know if he believed me or not. I just stared at him as he put together his thoughts, and I put together mine. There was something I left out...the kiss. Should I tell him? I don't know...
He was silent most of the evening. I really didn't understand him sometimes. He drove me nuts. He didn't talk things out, he thought about them on his own, normally it wasn't that big of a deal, but when it had to do with someone that still loves me, and tried to take me away...the fact he won't talk about it...bothered me. I tried to confront him about it.
"Max, we have to talk about this" I said breaking the silence that was our afternoon.
"What else is there to say?" he said, "Do you have something else to say?"
I stared at him, his dark eyes were cold, I wanted to tell him about the kiss, but I couldn't bring myself to let it out.
"No" I sighed, "nothing else"
"Ok"
"Don't you think you should be sleeping? You have a game tonight"
"I can't sleep right now" he said, "but can I just be left alone now. We can talk later"
I just nodded and started to leave the room when my phone vibrated on the table in front of him. I turned and looked at him then at the phone then back at him.
"Who is it?" he asked.
I moved towards my phone and picked it up, "it's him"
"More pleading?" he said.
"Fuck Max just let it go, it's nothing" I snapped moving to my room.
"What?" I said answering.
"Are you ok?"
"Price do you have something to say, because if not I would rather not talk to you right now"
"So you saw it?" he said.
"Yes" I replied, "Max is pissed at me. Now the media will be bothering him AGAIN about this, I'm fed up with all this drama"
"Why are you with him if he's causing you all this crap?" he asked.
"It's not him" I snapped, "it's everything that comes with him. I love him Price, but not what comes along with loving him"
"I'm not going to repeat my feelings for you again Julie, you know what they are, and if I would be so lucky as to have them returned from you, I would be the happiest guy alive, but if not, I suppose I need to give it up"
I just sighed. I realized that I love Max with my whole heart and soul, but Price, the moment I saw his face again, I knew the love was still there for him. I also knew that if I went back to Price, it would just cause more pain and drama for Max and if I stayed with Max, yes...Price would be hurt, but it would not do near the damage it would to Max. I think I've made the choice...
"Price. I know it's going to hurt, but I can't leave him. He already left his wife, and it was posted all over the media, and if I went back to you, it would cause alot more damage to him than it would for you...I will admit, when I saw you, I know the feelings were still there, but he's the one my heart belongs to and I can't bring myself to do that. Let's just end this before it gets any worse...please, for me"
There was silence on the other end. I wanted to know what he was thinking. He sighed and was silent still, he must have been thinking of what to say.
"Ok" he said, "I would never take you away from something that makes you this happy. Even if it does hurt"
"Thank you" I sighed, "we'll stay in contact though, right?"
"Of course. Goodbye Julie"
"Bye Price"
I hung up and breathed a sigh of relief. I felt so much better, but I needed to talk to Max, I needed to straighten this out, I didn't like being mad at him. I opened the door and saw him leaning against the wall, arms crossed.
"So it's done?" he said.
"It's you Max, no one else" I said quietly.
He was silent, I just bit my lip and looked down at the floor. I felt his hand come under my chin and he tilted my head towards him. I just looked into his eyes, which were warm again.
"I feel like I'm hurting you" he said.
"You would never hurt me" I whispered.
"It looks like you're hurting" he replied, "this whole thing is my fault"
"No" I said, "I chose you because I wouldn't be whole without you Max...and you chose me..." I couldn't finish the sentence.
"Because I would be completely empty without you" he finished.
I just smiled and he gently pulled me into a hug, "this needs to end" I sighed.
"It will, let's just take it a day at a time" he whispered.
"Ok" I said.
I believed him. There was no reason not to.
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And there's no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
Cause only you can love me this way
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Chapter 6
*So an idea came and I want to see if you like how it's going. If not..tell me and I will work around it. I just had to get my other love in her somehow ;) I know I have not been around in a while, my stupid laptop is being a douche...again. I'm on my mom's tonight, I'm thinking it will be another couple days before I can write some more. Enjoy what you get in this one. It's fairly long :D*
*Max's POV*
"What!?" I exclaimed. I couldn't believe what just came out of her mouth, Liz would never...
"Remember when I talked to her on the phone? Well she said that she went out the night you told her about the affair, hoping for something herself...she was flirting with some guy and her emotions got the best of her and she told this guy...not realizing he was a reporter" she stated.
"What!?" I repeated, not being able to say anything else.
"Max...relax" she said climbing into the driver's seat of her car.
"Should I talk to her?" I asked leaning into the open window.
"Do what you have to do" she said, "just don't do anything stupid, in the mean time...I will be home"
"Alright" I said gently kissing her, "see you there"
"Bye" she smiled starting the car and putting up the window.
*Julie's POV*
I waved at him before driving away from the arena. I really hoped he didn't do something stupid. I know how he gets when he loses his temper. I just didn't want him to get into more trouble then he was already in. As I was turning out of the parking lot I saw a bus coming in. As I waited for the cars to go by I looked in my rearview mirror as the bus stopped and players started getting out. They looked familiar, wait, Cammalleri, Gomez, Latendresse...it couldn't be. Then I saw him. Carey Price. I almost let my foot off the brake as I stared, which would lead me into incoming traffic. I hit the brakes hard and shook his face out of my mind. I hit the gas when it was clear and turned onto the road. See, Price was an ex, when I lived in Montreal...we dated on and off, it's where I started my writing career, we met the same way Max and I did...through an interview. It lasted a good while, but eventually he was changing, he wasn't the guy I fell for, we fought constantly and I finally had enough and broke it off. We haven't spoken since. The worst thing, he's still beautiful...
I got home and looked at my phone. I scrolled through my contacts and saw Price's name. I contemplated whether I should call him or not. But he beat me to it.
"Hi" I answered.
"So you and Max" he said.
"How did you know?" I said quietly, realizing the stupid question I just asked him.
"Julie, your picture was all over the fucking news. I know your in Pittsburgh...I want to see you"
"I can't be at the game Price. Too public right now" I told him sitting on the couch.
"I'll come see you, I have time" he said anxiously.
"Why do you want to see me?" I asked. I was getting annoyed.
"I miss you" he said quietly.
"Price, I can't be around you. I don't trust myself, especially not having seen you or spoken to you since we...ended it"
"You still have a thing for me" he said. You could practically hear the smug smirk on his face.
"Fuck off" I snapped.
"Still feisty" he said.
"Just leave me alone Price. I'm happy, and in love, I'm not letting you ruin it"
I just heard him sigh, "Julie, I just want to see you, I need some closure. I can't get over this. I keep telling myself it will never happen again, but I did love you...and still do. Can we just...talk?"
I couldln't believe what I was about to say, "Fine" I said giving him the address, "five minutes if you can find your way"
"Thank you"
I sighed and hung up the phone. Did I make the right decision doing this? I still don't know.
Some time later I heard a buzz and let him up without saying a word. I waited by the door and listened for the knock, opening before he could knock again.
"Hi" I said letting him in.
"Hey" he smiled keeping his eyes on me.
He still was beautiful. His dark eyes were shining. He was wearing a habs hat, hiding his face along wih light ripped jeans and a black under armour hoodie.
"So, what's up?" I asked crossing my arms.
"It's really nice seeing you Jules" he said.
"And?" I knew more was coming.
"I can't live without you" he said taking his hands out of his pockets, "no one else has been able to fill this hole you left...when you left"
I sighed, "Price..."
"Please, I've changed. Since you left I've realized that life without you...sucks. I didn't know what I had until you were gone...I need you"
I could see the pain in his eyes and I could tell he was sincere, and a part of me wanted to, but another part of me was unconditionally in love with Max...and always would be.
"I love him Price..."
"What about me? Do I not count in this? I. love. you." he was firm.
I was starting to get frustrated. Why did he have to do this now? I started to cry uncontrollably. All I did was collapse, but he caught me and held me as I sobbed in his chest.
I eventually composed myself and pulled away from his embrace.
"Jules. I would never get you into the kind of mess he has. I could never hurt you like that"
"He would never hurt me Price" I said quietly, "he loves me"
"He also has a wife who he's loved for a long time"
"He loves me now. They're done, it's over!"
He just stared at me, he was desperate. I know how much he wanted me. You could tell. I had the same look the night I begged Max to stay when he was still with Liz.
"Price. You're amazing, and you're being really sweet, but I can't bring myself to leave him. He needs me"
"I need you too"
He was not making this any easier.
"Why?" I simply asked.
"I'm nothing without you" he pleaded, "my life is empty. Everything hurts"
"I can't do this now" I said, "you said you wanted closure. That's why you came here"
"I lied"
"Obviously" I said under my breath, "you need to go"
He just sighed, he gave up, "fine"
I followed him as he headed towards the door. He turned to me suddenly and kept moving closer. I moved back until the wall kept me from moving back any further. I couldn't move, I didn't even try. My heart raced the moment he gently touched my face. He slowly leaned in and pressed his lips on mine. I admit, it felt good. I tugged onto his shirt and I felt him smile against my lips. It was hard to pull away. His kiss was literally intoxicating, I missed it, but then I thought of Max and I quickly pushed him off.
"Shit" I said breathlessly.
"What?" he said.
"...Max...I can't do this Price...you need to go" I said opening the door. Before I could do anything, he shut it again and leaned against it.
"After that...I'm liking my chances at getting you back"
"Fuck you" I snapped.
"Really?" he said moving closer, "that's your response?"
"I didn't mean literally jackass"
"Since when did you get this mean streak?" he said smirking.
"I get it from my boyfriend" I said, emphasizing that last word, "get out of my fucking apartment before I give him a call"
"I'm not scared of him Julie"
"Just go" I said quieter, "I can't deal with you right now"
"Fine" he sighed.
He finally walked out the door and I collapsed onto the couch. I grabbed my phone as I saw it light up with Max's name.
"Hey baby" he said. His voice was what I needed.
"Hey" I responded quietly, I was choking back tears.
"What's the matter?" he said immediately hearing the stress in my voice.
"Nothing, just come home soon please"
"I'm on my way" he said, "I love you"
"I love you too" I said.
I hung up and gently set my phone down. I started shaking trying to keep myself from even thinking about him, but it was too hard, his face flooded my mind, I just wanted to see Max. I needed him.
I turned on the tv looking for something entertaining to watch. I found FSN seeing Max's commercial. I gently chuckled. A minute later a headline showed up on the tv, not something I needed right now, and a picture of Price...in front of my apartment building.
"Habs in Pittsburgh. Julie Miller's new beau?"
*Max's POV*
"What!?" I exclaimed. I couldn't believe what just came out of her mouth, Liz would never...
"Remember when I talked to her on the phone? Well she said that she went out the night you told her about the affair, hoping for something herself...she was flirting with some guy and her emotions got the best of her and she told this guy...not realizing he was a reporter" she stated.
"What!?" I repeated, not being able to say anything else.
"Max...relax" she said climbing into the driver's seat of her car.
"Should I talk to her?" I asked leaning into the open window.
"Do what you have to do" she said, "just don't do anything stupid, in the mean time...I will be home"
"Alright" I said gently kissing her, "see you there"
"Bye" she smiled starting the car and putting up the window.
*Julie's POV*
I waved at him before driving away from the arena. I really hoped he didn't do something stupid. I know how he gets when he loses his temper. I just didn't want him to get into more trouble then he was already in. As I was turning out of the parking lot I saw a bus coming in. As I waited for the cars to go by I looked in my rearview mirror as the bus stopped and players started getting out. They looked familiar, wait, Cammalleri, Gomez, Latendresse...it couldn't be. Then I saw him. Carey Price. I almost let my foot off the brake as I stared, which would lead me into incoming traffic. I hit the brakes hard and shook his face out of my mind. I hit the gas when it was clear and turned onto the road. See, Price was an ex, when I lived in Montreal...we dated on and off, it's where I started my writing career, we met the same way Max and I did...through an interview. It lasted a good while, but eventually he was changing, he wasn't the guy I fell for, we fought constantly and I finally had enough and broke it off. We haven't spoken since. The worst thing, he's still beautiful...
I got home and looked at my phone. I scrolled through my contacts and saw Price's name. I contemplated whether I should call him or not. But he beat me to it.
"Hi" I answered.
"So you and Max" he said.
"How did you know?" I said quietly, realizing the stupid question I just asked him.
"Julie, your picture was all over the fucking news. I know your in Pittsburgh...I want to see you"
"I can't be at the game Price. Too public right now" I told him sitting on the couch.
"I'll come see you, I have time" he said anxiously.
"Why do you want to see me?" I asked. I was getting annoyed.
"I miss you" he said quietly.
"Price, I can't be around you. I don't trust myself, especially not having seen you or spoken to you since we...ended it"
"You still have a thing for me" he said. You could practically hear the smug smirk on his face.
"Fuck off" I snapped.
"Still feisty" he said.
"Just leave me alone Price. I'm happy, and in love, I'm not letting you ruin it"
I just heard him sigh, "Julie, I just want to see you, I need some closure. I can't get over this. I keep telling myself it will never happen again, but I did love you...and still do. Can we just...talk?"
I couldln't believe what I was about to say, "Fine" I said giving him the address, "five minutes if you can find your way"
"Thank you"
I sighed and hung up the phone. Did I make the right decision doing this? I still don't know.
Some time later I heard a buzz and let him up without saying a word. I waited by the door and listened for the knock, opening before he could knock again.
"Hi" I said letting him in.
"Hey" he smiled keeping his eyes on me.
He still was beautiful. His dark eyes were shining. He was wearing a habs hat, hiding his face along wih light ripped jeans and a black under armour hoodie.
"So, what's up?" I asked crossing my arms.
"It's really nice seeing you Jules" he said.
"And?" I knew more was coming.
"I can't live without you" he said taking his hands out of his pockets, "no one else has been able to fill this hole you left...when you left"
I sighed, "Price..."
"Please, I've changed. Since you left I've realized that life without you...sucks. I didn't know what I had until you were gone...I need you"
I could see the pain in his eyes and I could tell he was sincere, and a part of me wanted to, but another part of me was unconditionally in love with Max...and always would be.
"I love him Price..."
"What about me? Do I not count in this? I. love. you." he was firm.
I was starting to get frustrated. Why did he have to do this now? I started to cry uncontrollably. All I did was collapse, but he caught me and held me as I sobbed in his chest.
I eventually composed myself and pulled away from his embrace.
"Jules. I would never get you into the kind of mess he has. I could never hurt you like that"
"He would never hurt me Price" I said quietly, "he loves me"
"He also has a wife who he's loved for a long time"
"He loves me now. They're done, it's over!"
He just stared at me, he was desperate. I know how much he wanted me. You could tell. I had the same look the night I begged Max to stay when he was still with Liz.
"Price. You're amazing, and you're being really sweet, but I can't bring myself to leave him. He needs me"
"I need you too"
He was not making this any easier.
"Why?" I simply asked.
"I'm nothing without you" he pleaded, "my life is empty. Everything hurts"
"I can't do this now" I said, "you said you wanted closure. That's why you came here"
"I lied"
"Obviously" I said under my breath, "you need to go"
He just sighed, he gave up, "fine"
I followed him as he headed towards the door. He turned to me suddenly and kept moving closer. I moved back until the wall kept me from moving back any further. I couldn't move, I didn't even try. My heart raced the moment he gently touched my face. He slowly leaned in and pressed his lips on mine. I admit, it felt good. I tugged onto his shirt and I felt him smile against my lips. It was hard to pull away. His kiss was literally intoxicating, I missed it, but then I thought of Max and I quickly pushed him off.
"Shit" I said breathlessly.
"What?" he said.
"...Max...I can't do this Price...you need to go" I said opening the door. Before I could do anything, he shut it again and leaned against it.
"After that...I'm liking my chances at getting you back"
"Fuck you" I snapped.
"Really?" he said moving closer, "that's your response?"
"I didn't mean literally jackass"
"Since when did you get this mean streak?" he said smirking.
"I get it from my boyfriend" I said, emphasizing that last word, "get out of my fucking apartment before I give him a call"
"I'm not scared of him Julie"
"Just go" I said quieter, "I can't deal with you right now"
"Fine" he sighed.
He finally walked out the door and I collapsed onto the couch. I grabbed my phone as I saw it light up with Max's name.
"Hey baby" he said. His voice was what I needed.
"Hey" I responded quietly, I was choking back tears.
"What's the matter?" he said immediately hearing the stress in my voice.
"Nothing, just come home soon please"
"I'm on my way" he said, "I love you"
"I love you too" I said.
I hung up and gently set my phone down. I started shaking trying to keep myself from even thinking about him, but it was too hard, his face flooded my mind, I just wanted to see Max. I needed him.
I turned on the tv looking for something entertaining to watch. I found FSN seeing Max's commercial. I gently chuckled. A minute later a headline showed up on the tv, not something I needed right now, and a picture of Price...in front of my apartment building.
"Habs in Pittsburgh. Julie Miller's new beau?"
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Chapter 5
*sooo, this one's a bit intense. I kinda rushed this one, there could be a few mistakes, I didn't really check it over. but overall you should enjoy it :) and oh yah. COMMENTS PLEASE. Thanks :)*
*Julie’s POV*
He just left for practice and I was terrified. For him. They were going to attack him with questions afterwards. I know he’ll say nothing, but I knew he was going to be overwhelmed and torn apart. I was honestly scared for myself too, I don’t know where I was going to go to keep them away. You never know who is a freaking reporter just waiting for the perfect moment to catch you in the act.
I grabbed my keys and slipped on my shoes. I was ready to head out, when I heard a phone ringing. I searched my pockets and found mine in the back pocket. I turned the corner into the kitchen and saw Max’s on the table. The number didn’t show up, so I answered.
“Hello?”
“Where’s Max?” a female voice answered. She sounded upset.
“Um, gone to practice right now, who is this?”
“Liz, who is this?”
I froze. What the hell was I supposed to say to his ex wife?
“Um…”
“Well?” she was impatient.
“Julie” I said quietly.
“So you’re the one that ruined our marriage? Broke us apart?”
I deserved that, but I had nothing to say, but she kept going.
“You know…a whore like you does not deserve the love he has to offer”
“And you do!?” I shot back.
“I know him inside and out, I’ve known him longer than you have, I’ve loved him longer than you have and I will not let someone like you ruin that!?”
“Someone like me? The someone he’s in love with? The someone he chose over you? You’re a self-righteous bitch who doesn’t deserve an ounce of the love he has to give. He may have married you, but I have no doubt in my mind that someday I will be the one with his ring on my finger!” I was ready to scream.
“You bitch…” she said quietly.
“You’re probably the one who let this all out into the media so I would shut your mouth right now!”
She was silent.
“It was you!”
“That is none of your business” she snapped.
“So it was you” I repeated quieter.
“I didn’t mean for it to get out that way”
“I lost my fucking job for this. This could hurt Max’s career like you wouldn’t believe. Do you care about anyone but yourself!?” I felt like punching something at this point.
“After I found out about Max’s affair I went out. I was furious. Pissed off. I didn’t realize the guy was a reporter. I just thought he was flirting…so I told him”
“You told a complete stranger--”
“My emotions got the best of me alright!? I don’t know who got the pictures, I just said what happened…the pictures are not my fault”
“I’m done talking to you” I said hanging up the phone.
The nerve of that bitch to do that and then freak out at Max for letting it get out. I would love to go find her and give her a piece of my mind…like that would really do anything.
I grabbed his phone and my keys. I drove myself to Mellon Arena so I could talk to him after practice. I came in and sat back as I watched the practice, thank goodness they didn’t have any media around…yet. I made the decision to stay away from the dressing room. I didn’t need to be in there when they were to show up. I waited in my car.
After a while I saw a few of them coming out and I spotted Max. I tried to not be obvious, but all the guys knew about it now. I got a couple looks from Crosby, Malkin and even Letang. I ignored them and leaned against the hood of my car, dangling my keys. I saw him lean against the hood beside me. I slowly handed him his phone.
“You ok?” he asked.
“I talked to Liz” I said quietly.
“What!?” he said in a hushed tone.
“Your phone rang. There was no caller id, I answered…”
“And it was Liz…” he said.
“She’s a bitch” I said.
He didn’t reply.
“I’ve ruined everything haven’t I?” I sighed standing up.
“No” he said, “this is for the best Julie, you and me”
I ignored him, “did you talk to the media at all?”
“Yes…”
“And?”
“I said nothing, I ignored them and told them to not bring the fucking subject up again”
“Well that’s classy of you” I smirked.
He just laughed, “nobody is telling me being with you is wrong. I know cheating on Liz was wrong…but the decsion to be with you, I will never regret”
I just smiled big and bit my lip.
I heard someone come up behind me and Max looked up. I turned my head and saw Letang standing behind me. I didn’t say anything.
“What’s up with you ruining a happy marriage?” he said. If you didn’t know…Letang was engaged, and very happy.
I didn’t respond.
“Hey Kris, you want to drop this” said Max.
“How the hell do you know she doesn’t have someone else waiting for her?” he said.
At that point I was so furious I shoved him into the car behind him. He had a look of shock on his face.
“You should keep this one on a short leash” he said with a smug smile.
“Excuse me!?” I snapped lunging at him.
Max grabbed me and pulled me back, “just relax baby, he shouldn’t be saying a word”
“You fucking shut your mouth or your fiancee is going to find out about the blonde whore from Friday night” Max said quietly.
“You wouldn’t…” he said his eyes narrowing.
“Dude, you are getting on my last nerve so don’t think I wouldn’t…”
“Fine” he said backing off.
“Max, you need to know something” I told him opening the door of my car.
He just looked at me waiting for what it was I had to say.
“Liz told me it was her that told the media…”
*Julie’s POV*
He just left for practice and I was terrified. For him. They were going to attack him with questions afterwards. I know he’ll say nothing, but I knew he was going to be overwhelmed and torn apart. I was honestly scared for myself too, I don’t know where I was going to go to keep them away. You never know who is a freaking reporter just waiting for the perfect moment to catch you in the act.
I grabbed my keys and slipped on my shoes. I was ready to head out, when I heard a phone ringing. I searched my pockets and found mine in the back pocket. I turned the corner into the kitchen and saw Max’s on the table. The number didn’t show up, so I answered.
“Hello?”
“Where’s Max?” a female voice answered. She sounded upset.
“Um, gone to practice right now, who is this?”
“Liz, who is this?”
I froze. What the hell was I supposed to say to his ex wife?
“Um…”
“Well?” she was impatient.
“Julie” I said quietly.
“So you’re the one that ruined our marriage? Broke us apart?”
I deserved that, but I had nothing to say, but she kept going.
“You know…a whore like you does not deserve the love he has to offer”
“And you do!?” I shot back.
“I know him inside and out, I’ve known him longer than you have, I’ve loved him longer than you have and I will not let someone like you ruin that!?”
“Someone like me? The someone he’s in love with? The someone he chose over you? You’re a self-righteous bitch who doesn’t deserve an ounce of the love he has to give. He may have married you, but I have no doubt in my mind that someday I will be the one with his ring on my finger!” I was ready to scream.
“You bitch…” she said quietly.
“You’re probably the one who let this all out into the media so I would shut your mouth right now!”
She was silent.
“It was you!”
“That is none of your business” she snapped.
“So it was you” I repeated quieter.
“I didn’t mean for it to get out that way”
“I lost my fucking job for this. This could hurt Max’s career like you wouldn’t believe. Do you care about anyone but yourself!?” I felt like punching something at this point.
“After I found out about Max’s affair I went out. I was furious. Pissed off. I didn’t realize the guy was a reporter. I just thought he was flirting…so I told him”
“You told a complete stranger--”
“My emotions got the best of me alright!? I don’t know who got the pictures, I just said what happened…the pictures are not my fault”
“I’m done talking to you” I said hanging up the phone.
The nerve of that bitch to do that and then freak out at Max for letting it get out. I would love to go find her and give her a piece of my mind…like that would really do anything.
I grabbed his phone and my keys. I drove myself to Mellon Arena so I could talk to him after practice. I came in and sat back as I watched the practice, thank goodness they didn’t have any media around…yet. I made the decision to stay away from the dressing room. I didn’t need to be in there when they were to show up. I waited in my car.
After a while I saw a few of them coming out and I spotted Max. I tried to not be obvious, but all the guys knew about it now. I got a couple looks from Crosby, Malkin and even Letang. I ignored them and leaned against the hood of my car, dangling my keys. I saw him lean against the hood beside me. I slowly handed him his phone.
“You ok?” he asked.
“I talked to Liz” I said quietly.
“What!?” he said in a hushed tone.
“Your phone rang. There was no caller id, I answered…”
“And it was Liz…” he said.
“She’s a bitch” I said.
He didn’t reply.
“I’ve ruined everything haven’t I?” I sighed standing up.
“No” he said, “this is for the best Julie, you and me”
I ignored him, “did you talk to the media at all?”
“Yes…”
“And?”
“I said nothing, I ignored them and told them to not bring the fucking subject up again”
“Well that’s classy of you” I smirked.
He just laughed, “nobody is telling me being with you is wrong. I know cheating on Liz was wrong…but the decsion to be with you, I will never regret”
I just smiled big and bit my lip.
I heard someone come up behind me and Max looked up. I turned my head and saw Letang standing behind me. I didn’t say anything.
“What’s up with you ruining a happy marriage?” he said. If you didn’t know…Letang was engaged, and very happy.
I didn’t respond.
“Hey Kris, you want to drop this” said Max.
“How the hell do you know she doesn’t have someone else waiting for her?” he said.
At that point I was so furious I shoved him into the car behind him. He had a look of shock on his face.
“You should keep this one on a short leash” he said with a smug smile.
“Excuse me!?” I snapped lunging at him.
Max grabbed me and pulled me back, “just relax baby, he shouldn’t be saying a word”
“You fucking shut your mouth or your fiancee is going to find out about the blonde whore from Friday night” Max said quietly.
“You wouldn’t…” he said his eyes narrowing.
“Dude, you are getting on my last nerve so don’t think I wouldn’t…”
“Fine” he said backing off.
“Max, you need to know something” I told him opening the door of my car.
He just looked at me waiting for what it was I had to say.
“Liz told me it was her that told the media…”
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Chapter 4
*So I'm pretty sure, this is my favorite chapter yet for this story:D i hope you guys agree. rememberr commmenttt pleaseee. Thanks you XD*
*Max’s POV*
I went to Jordan’s and threw my bag on his floor as he opened the door. He looked down at the suitcase and back up at me.
“This doesn’t look good” he said still looking up and down between me and the suitcase.
“We had a fight, she kicked me out basically” I said walking in.
“Did you tell Julie?” he asked, “find out how she’s taking this whole media thing?”
“Well she was the one who told me the whole thing” I began, “but I haven’t talked to her since”
“Call her” was all he said putting his house phone in my hands.
I dialled her number quickly and waited impatiently for her to answer.
*Julie’s POV*
I saw a number on my phone I didn’t recognize, I picked up anyways curious as to who it could be.
“Hey” was all I heard, I quickly discovered it was Max.
“How are you?” I asked anxiously, I was worried about him.
“I’m fine, I’m more worried about you”
“Don’t worry about me, I’ll survive” I said, “I was fired though”
“I’m sorry Julie” he sighed.
“It’s all good, he didn’t like me in the first place, he finally found a reason to get rid of me” I chuckled.
He just laughed, “I talked to Liz”
The tone got serious again, “And?”
“She kicked me out” he simply said.
“Oh…I’m sorry” I replied.
“It’s ok” he said, “maybe it’s for the best right now”
“Yah…” I said. I didn’t know what else to say at this point, “where are you?”
“Jordan’s” he said.
“I’m coming over, and don’t try and convince me otherwise” I told him.
“Ok” he said.
I knew where Jordan lived, yes. We actually knew each other some time before he became a huge hockey star. I know I should have mentioned it earlier, but I didn’t think it was that relevant. But we are good friends, which is half the reason I met Max, the other half is--or was my job.
I changed into a pair of dark ripped jeans, a long grey cardigan sweater and a white tank top underneath. It was fairly warm for spring. I just left my hair as is and put on some blush, mascara and lip gloss and I slipped on my flip flops.
I quickly made my way to his apartment and walked up to the second floor of the building. I knocked on the door impatiently and saw Jordan open the door.
“Hey Jor” I smiled.
Before he could say anything I saw Max over his shoulder and ran over to him. I gave him a huge hug and Jordan just looked on. Seriously his arms around me again was the most amazing feeling in the world. I was so in love.
“I’m sorry” he whispered.
“It’s ok” I said, “it’s not your fault”
“I love you…only you” he said.
I pulled back and was shocked at the words he had just spoken. Was this it?
“Me? After all this…it’s me?” I was choking, but kept my tears back.
“It’s always been you” he said putting his hand on my cheek.
I just took that hand in mine, “I never thought I would hear you say that…”
“I thought she was the one Julie, until I met you. My whole world flipped upside down when I met you…in a good way”
I just smiled and bit my lip, “I love you Max Talbot”
“I love you Julie Miller…and I’m not leaving you again”
“I hate to break up the moment, but it seems you have some followers” Jordan said pointing towards the porch.
I slowly walked out on the porch and looked over the edge quickly then pulled my head back.
“How did they follow me? Do they know where I freaking live?” I huffed.
“They’re everywhere” Jordan said.
“They can’t stay all night” said Max, “they’ll eventually have to leave”
Just then there was a knock on the door. Like an idiot Jordan answered it and quickly shut it, seeing the camera.
“Nice going moron” I said giving him a playful shove.
“Ouch” he said with a smirk.
I just smiled sarcastically and looked outside, they were still there.
“They just don’t fucking let up” I sighed.
“Wow, where did this feisty side come from?” Jordan asked, “I remember you timid and shy…and a lot quieter…and not so violent” he just rubbed his arm where I pushed him.
“That’s what you get for being with this jackass” I joked pointing to Max who was standing behind me.
“Love you too” Max laughed.
I reached my hand backwards and gave him a pat on the cheek, and smiled proudly back at him.
*Max’s POV*
I knew there was reason she was the one. Not only was she amazing, confident and beautiful. She could light up even a situation like this with no effort whatsoever. I was not ready to go to the media with this, but I was glad I had someone beside me during the entire thing, until it eventually blew over, and who knows how long that will take.
The three of us were sitting on the couch watching as the whole thing unfolded. They didn’t spend a lot of time on it, I’m pretty sure there were more important things to worry about. But it seemed like the header every time a new edition of sports highlights came on. I was surprised how well Julie was actually taking this. I was surprised how well I was taking this. This could hurt my career….severely, even if they don’t find out the truth. The allegations…the pictures, they are enough ammo to do damage.
I looked over at Julie who was joking around with Jordan. I had no idea what they were going on about….I was lost in my own thoughts, which is quite rare actually. I just smiled as I saw how happy she was, I have honestly never seen her this happy in a long time, since before she found out about Liz. It made me happy. It would kill me to even see her hurting, even just the slightest bit.
“Dinner?” she said standing up. We really had nothing else to do.
“You cook?” Jordan asked her in a serious tone.
“No, not really….but I do know places where we can get a decent pizza and I already know you have the beer Jordan” she said smiling proudly his way.
I just laughed, “sounds like a night in to me”
She grabbed the phone and went into the other room. I just watched Jordan go into the fridge and grab a couple beers and hand me one.
“You happy now?” he asked me.
“Well, in a way yes” I said with a sigh of relief.
“Continue” he said.
“I know picking her was the right decision, even if it was a quick one” I began, “She makes me so happy Jordan. I also know that these next few days are going to be hell, I mean, I can’t stay here forever, they are going to ask me the moment they catch me after practice, and Liz and I will end up getting a divorce because of this, and do you know how messy that will get? So I’m freaking glad I have Julie by my side, I don’t know what I’d do without her”
“I could tell you loved her the moment you spoke her name when you confessed what you were doing. I wouldn’t expect anything less” he said taking a sip, “if I were you, I would say she’s the one”
I just nodded in agreement, “I believe that with my whole heart”
“Pizza’s coming!” she exclaimed from the kitchen.
“Ok!” we both said sitting down.
She came in the room, also with drink in hand. There was something about her…
*Julie’s POV*
I was so happy right now. I know what was going on and I knew what would happen in the next few days, but I didn’t mind. These guys were my life right now, and tonight was all I wanted to think about.
I sat between them and grabbed the remote from Jordan’s hands. He tried to grab it but I quickly stood up and sat on the chair next to the couch to avoid him. He was too lazy to try and get it back. I looked through the channels and found the Canadiens and Bruins game.
“We’re watching this and I don’t want anyone trying to switch it on me” I practically commanded.
“Yes ma’am” Jordan joked as he sat back in the couch.
I just laughed as I set the remote safely beside me. See? It really does not get any better than this, I didn’t want to think about tomorrow…I just wanted tonight, I just wanted Jordan, Max, beer, pizza and a good hockey game to forget about what was coming.
*Max’s POV*
I went to Jordan’s and threw my bag on his floor as he opened the door. He looked down at the suitcase and back up at me.
“This doesn’t look good” he said still looking up and down between me and the suitcase.
“We had a fight, she kicked me out basically” I said walking in.
“Did you tell Julie?” he asked, “find out how she’s taking this whole media thing?”
“Well she was the one who told me the whole thing” I began, “but I haven’t talked to her since”
“Call her” was all he said putting his house phone in my hands.
I dialled her number quickly and waited impatiently for her to answer.
*Julie’s POV*
I saw a number on my phone I didn’t recognize, I picked up anyways curious as to who it could be.
“Hey” was all I heard, I quickly discovered it was Max.
“How are you?” I asked anxiously, I was worried about him.
“I’m fine, I’m more worried about you”
“Don’t worry about me, I’ll survive” I said, “I was fired though”
“I’m sorry Julie” he sighed.
“It’s all good, he didn’t like me in the first place, he finally found a reason to get rid of me” I chuckled.
He just laughed, “I talked to Liz”
The tone got serious again, “And?”
“She kicked me out” he simply said.
“Oh…I’m sorry” I replied.
“It’s ok” he said, “maybe it’s for the best right now”
“Yah…” I said. I didn’t know what else to say at this point, “where are you?”
“Jordan’s” he said.
“I’m coming over, and don’t try and convince me otherwise” I told him.
“Ok” he said.
I knew where Jordan lived, yes. We actually knew each other some time before he became a huge hockey star. I know I should have mentioned it earlier, but I didn’t think it was that relevant. But we are good friends, which is half the reason I met Max, the other half is--or was my job.
I changed into a pair of dark ripped jeans, a long grey cardigan sweater and a white tank top underneath. It was fairly warm for spring. I just left my hair as is and put on some blush, mascara and lip gloss and I slipped on my flip flops.
I quickly made my way to his apartment and walked up to the second floor of the building. I knocked on the door impatiently and saw Jordan open the door.
“Hey Jor” I smiled.
Before he could say anything I saw Max over his shoulder and ran over to him. I gave him a huge hug and Jordan just looked on. Seriously his arms around me again was the most amazing feeling in the world. I was so in love.
“I’m sorry” he whispered.
“It’s ok” I said, “it’s not your fault”
“I love you…only you” he said.
I pulled back and was shocked at the words he had just spoken. Was this it?
“Me? After all this…it’s me?” I was choking, but kept my tears back.
“It’s always been you” he said putting his hand on my cheek.
I just took that hand in mine, “I never thought I would hear you say that…”
“I thought she was the one Julie, until I met you. My whole world flipped upside down when I met you…in a good way”
I just smiled and bit my lip, “I love you Max Talbot”
“I love you Julie Miller…and I’m not leaving you again”
“I hate to break up the moment, but it seems you have some followers” Jordan said pointing towards the porch.
I slowly walked out on the porch and looked over the edge quickly then pulled my head back.
“How did they follow me? Do they know where I freaking live?” I huffed.
“They’re everywhere” Jordan said.
“They can’t stay all night” said Max, “they’ll eventually have to leave”
Just then there was a knock on the door. Like an idiot Jordan answered it and quickly shut it, seeing the camera.
“Nice going moron” I said giving him a playful shove.
“Ouch” he said with a smirk.
I just smiled sarcastically and looked outside, they were still there.
“They just don’t fucking let up” I sighed.
“Wow, where did this feisty side come from?” Jordan asked, “I remember you timid and shy…and a lot quieter…and not so violent” he just rubbed his arm where I pushed him.
“That’s what you get for being with this jackass” I joked pointing to Max who was standing behind me.
“Love you too” Max laughed.
I reached my hand backwards and gave him a pat on the cheek, and smiled proudly back at him.
*Max’s POV*
I knew there was reason she was the one. Not only was she amazing, confident and beautiful. She could light up even a situation like this with no effort whatsoever. I was not ready to go to the media with this, but I was glad I had someone beside me during the entire thing, until it eventually blew over, and who knows how long that will take.
The three of us were sitting on the couch watching as the whole thing unfolded. They didn’t spend a lot of time on it, I’m pretty sure there were more important things to worry about. But it seemed like the header every time a new edition of sports highlights came on. I was surprised how well Julie was actually taking this. I was surprised how well I was taking this. This could hurt my career….severely, even if they don’t find out the truth. The allegations…the pictures, they are enough ammo to do damage.
I looked over at Julie who was joking around with Jordan. I had no idea what they were going on about….I was lost in my own thoughts, which is quite rare actually. I just smiled as I saw how happy she was, I have honestly never seen her this happy in a long time, since before she found out about Liz. It made me happy. It would kill me to even see her hurting, even just the slightest bit.
“Dinner?” she said standing up. We really had nothing else to do.
“You cook?” Jordan asked her in a serious tone.
“No, not really….but I do know places where we can get a decent pizza and I already know you have the beer Jordan” she said smiling proudly his way.
I just laughed, “sounds like a night in to me”
She grabbed the phone and went into the other room. I just watched Jordan go into the fridge and grab a couple beers and hand me one.
“You happy now?” he asked me.
“Well, in a way yes” I said with a sigh of relief.
“Continue” he said.
“I know picking her was the right decision, even if it was a quick one” I began, “She makes me so happy Jordan. I also know that these next few days are going to be hell, I mean, I can’t stay here forever, they are going to ask me the moment they catch me after practice, and Liz and I will end up getting a divorce because of this, and do you know how messy that will get? So I’m freaking glad I have Julie by my side, I don’t know what I’d do without her”
“I could tell you loved her the moment you spoke her name when you confessed what you were doing. I wouldn’t expect anything less” he said taking a sip, “if I were you, I would say she’s the one”
I just nodded in agreement, “I believe that with my whole heart”
“Pizza’s coming!” she exclaimed from the kitchen.
“Ok!” we both said sitting down.
She came in the room, also with drink in hand. There was something about her…
*Julie’s POV*
I was so happy right now. I know what was going on and I knew what would happen in the next few days, but I didn’t mind. These guys were my life right now, and tonight was all I wanted to think about.
I sat between them and grabbed the remote from Jordan’s hands. He tried to grab it but I quickly stood up and sat on the chair next to the couch to avoid him. He was too lazy to try and get it back. I looked through the channels and found the Canadiens and Bruins game.
“We’re watching this and I don’t want anyone trying to switch it on me” I practically commanded.
“Yes ma’am” Jordan joked as he sat back in the couch.
I just laughed as I set the remote safely beside me. See? It really does not get any better than this, I didn’t want to think about tomorrow…I just wanted tonight, I just wanted Jordan, Max, beer, pizza and a good hockey game to forget about what was coming.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Chapter 3
*soooo im gettin some feedback on this story which im enhjoying ;) im thinking of making up a little video promo/introduction sort of thing for this one, nothing huge, but maybe to get some people reading and following :) I hope ya's enjoy this chapter, it's not majorly exciting but i still think you will find it enjoyable XD*
The past few weeks I have not seen Max. I have talked to him a bit, but he just called to see how I was. I didn’t tell him the honest truth, because I was falling apart.
This next week was a big homestand for Pittsburgh so they were going to be around for a while, which means, Max has made his decision, well I hope he has.
*Max’s POV*
We just got to Pittsburgh. My stomach was turning, I’ve never been nervous like this before. I still hadn’t made a decision. I had talked to both of them since being gone, and honestly Jor was still rooting for Julie, Fleury knew too, and he honestly adored Julie, no one else on the team knew, I had to be careful, if it got to the media…I would be screwed.
I walked into Mellon Arena and got ready for a short practice since last night’s loss to the Rangers. I looked at my phone as I sat down in my stall, Liz had called, she must have done her thinking, but I realized, I haven’t done any myself…
*Julie’s POV*
I sat on my couch curled up in a warm blanket while watching “A Walk to Remember”. Saddest movie ever. I was balling by the end of it. I wiped my eyes and got up to grab myself some coffee, when I heard my phone go off. I froze.
I sat there watching it ring. It stopped, indicating they hung up, but they tried again, I knew it was Max, he was very determined even when making a phone call. I finally grabbed it off the couch, sat down and put the blanket over me.
“Hi” I said answering.
“Hey” he said, “um, were back in Pittsburgh”
“That’s good” I said, I didn’t know what he wanted me to say.
“Liz called”
I just sat there silent for a minute, preparing myself for what could come next.
“And?” I said quietly.
“I missed the call, I’m going over to talk to her”
“Oh…”
I was flipping through the channels when I landed on FSN. Some hockey game highlights were on and then…the dreaded happened.
‘TALBOT WITH ANOTHER WOMAN?’
I nearly dropped my phone and let out a small gasp.
“Max…” I said.
“Something wrong?” he asked.
“They--they--kn--they know” I whispered.
“Who knows what babe?” he asked.
I put the phone up to the tv so he could hear what they were saying. I finally put it back up to my ear and I heard a sigh.
“Who would have said something?” he sounded like he was asking himself.
“Who else knows?” I asked him surprisingly.
“Only Liz, Jor and Fleury” he replied, “Liz wouldn’t, she wouldn’t want the attention, and the guys, just aren’t like that, they would never sell me out Julie”
I just sat silent, I didn’t think anyone else knew…
“I need to go talk to Liz. Maybe that’s why she called” he said anxiously.
“Call me after” I said.
He hung up quickly and I just set my phone down slowly. I grabbed my laptop and quickly looked at the latest sports headlines. Sure enough, it was already around.
‘TALBOT SLEEPING WITH JOURNALIST’
‘MAXIME TALBOT FINDS NEW LOVE’
‘DIVORCE ON THE WAY FOR TALBOT AND WIFE LIZ?’
“Holy shit” I whispered to myself putting my hand over my mouth.
There were pictures and everything. Us in his car, at Diesel that night, and even him coming into the apartment. I thought we were subtle after I found out about his marriage, how did someone find out and why did they wait that long to leak all of this? Who would be heartless enough to do such a thing?
I was getting phone calls and texts like crazy now. My best friends, my sister, my parents. How would I face them again? How was I supposed to respond to this? I grabbed it seeing a text from Ally, my sister.
“What the hell is going on Julie?” was all she put.
I tried to play innocent, “what are you talking about?” I texted back.
“Don’t play innocent with me little sister, what the hell are you doing fooling around with a married man?”
I dialled her number and decided to call her instead. I couldn’t explain it all in a text.
“Ally, he never told me he was married until I had already fallen for him. He never wore his ring when he was at the club. It just never phased me as a possibility!”
“Well why didn’t you leave after you found out? Find someone else you could fall in love with, who wasn’t married!”
“I’m sorry” I started choking up, “I couldn’t let him go, I was in love. I still am…”
“How is she going to react when she finds out?” she asked me.
“She knew before any of this leaked” I sighed, “Max had told her”
“Wow” was all she said.
“I don’t need your bitching right now Ally. I need my sister” I sighed.
“I’m sorry” she replied, “this just didn’t seem like you, I didn’t believe it at first”
“It’s ok” I said, “have you talked to mom and dad yet?”
“They’re both furious”
“Oh joy” I said leaning back on the couch.
“You need to talk to them”
“I will call them tonight, I’ll talk to you soon”
I put my phone down and ignored any texts I received from the past little while.
*Max’s POV*
I couldn’t believe this had been leaked. I raced home to find Liz in a heap of tears. I sat next to her and she just cried in my chest. What the hell was I doing? I was ruining everything we had together. I was breaking her heart, and this media wasn’t helping. It was only a matter of time I would be bombarded with press and questions at the next post-game conference.
“I’m so sorry Liz” I told her, “I didn’t want this to happen”
“Well it did Max, and you fell in love with her, how the hell will you decide? And how are you going to face your team again?” she asked me.
“I’ll survive” I said.
“Well good luck with that, but until you make a fucking decision, you are not staying in this place with me, move out to Jordan’s, Fleury’s or go to your freaking whore, I don’t care”
“Ok, that’s it Liz, that whore is the woman I’m in love with. And for the record she’s not a whore, and she is being a lot more mature about this whole situation than you have, she has known I was married for the past four months and has not acted in any way against you. She almost told me to go back to you…”
“She sounds wonderful, maybe I should meet her” she said sarcastically.
“Ok, now you’re just being a smart ass” I said standing up.
“Well she does” she said seriously, “sounds like you two would make a good match”
“You’re unbelievable!” I said raising my voice.
“You’re the one who cheated on me, don’t start acting like the freaking victim Max! You knew this would come back and bite you in the ass!”
“I’m leaving” I said going to the bedroom. I packed what I could and shut the bedroom door behind me.
“Have a good one” I said sarcastically walking out the door. Probably for the last time.
*Julie’s POV*
I was going insane. Everything hurt right now. After this how could he not go back to her? Why would he go back to the one who caused this whole mess in the first place? I got a call from my boss, who fired me on the spot. Great, no job, no Max, my life is done.
I sat on my couch trying to avoid the media coverage on this whole scandal. But it was impossible. It was all over the place, tomorrow it would be in the papers and tabloids, I dreaded the morning when I would have to see a picture of us, the night our worlds collided. The night that would change our lives completely.
The past few weeks I have not seen Max. I have talked to him a bit, but he just called to see how I was. I didn’t tell him the honest truth, because I was falling apart.
This next week was a big homestand for Pittsburgh so they were going to be around for a while, which means, Max has made his decision, well I hope he has.
*Max’s POV*
We just got to Pittsburgh. My stomach was turning, I’ve never been nervous like this before. I still hadn’t made a decision. I had talked to both of them since being gone, and honestly Jor was still rooting for Julie, Fleury knew too, and he honestly adored Julie, no one else on the team knew, I had to be careful, if it got to the media…I would be screwed.
I walked into Mellon Arena and got ready for a short practice since last night’s loss to the Rangers. I looked at my phone as I sat down in my stall, Liz had called, she must have done her thinking, but I realized, I haven’t done any myself…
*Julie’s POV*
I sat on my couch curled up in a warm blanket while watching “A Walk to Remember”. Saddest movie ever. I was balling by the end of it. I wiped my eyes and got up to grab myself some coffee, when I heard my phone go off. I froze.
I sat there watching it ring. It stopped, indicating they hung up, but they tried again, I knew it was Max, he was very determined even when making a phone call. I finally grabbed it off the couch, sat down and put the blanket over me.
“Hi” I said answering.
“Hey” he said, “um, were back in Pittsburgh”
“That’s good” I said, I didn’t know what he wanted me to say.
“Liz called”
I just sat there silent for a minute, preparing myself for what could come next.
“And?” I said quietly.
“I missed the call, I’m going over to talk to her”
“Oh…”
I was flipping through the channels when I landed on FSN. Some hockey game highlights were on and then…the dreaded happened.
‘TALBOT WITH ANOTHER WOMAN?’
I nearly dropped my phone and let out a small gasp.
“Max…” I said.
“Something wrong?” he asked.
“They--they--kn--they know” I whispered.
“Who knows what babe?” he asked.
I put the phone up to the tv so he could hear what they were saying. I finally put it back up to my ear and I heard a sigh.
“Who would have said something?” he sounded like he was asking himself.
“Who else knows?” I asked him surprisingly.
“Only Liz, Jor and Fleury” he replied, “Liz wouldn’t, she wouldn’t want the attention, and the guys, just aren’t like that, they would never sell me out Julie”
I just sat silent, I didn’t think anyone else knew…
“I need to go talk to Liz. Maybe that’s why she called” he said anxiously.
“Call me after” I said.
He hung up quickly and I just set my phone down slowly. I grabbed my laptop and quickly looked at the latest sports headlines. Sure enough, it was already around.
‘TALBOT SLEEPING WITH JOURNALIST’
‘MAXIME TALBOT FINDS NEW LOVE’
‘DIVORCE ON THE WAY FOR TALBOT AND WIFE LIZ?’
“Holy shit” I whispered to myself putting my hand over my mouth.
There were pictures and everything. Us in his car, at Diesel that night, and even him coming into the apartment. I thought we were subtle after I found out about his marriage, how did someone find out and why did they wait that long to leak all of this? Who would be heartless enough to do such a thing?
I was getting phone calls and texts like crazy now. My best friends, my sister, my parents. How would I face them again? How was I supposed to respond to this? I grabbed it seeing a text from Ally, my sister.
“What the hell is going on Julie?” was all she put.
I tried to play innocent, “what are you talking about?” I texted back.
“Don’t play innocent with me little sister, what the hell are you doing fooling around with a married man?”
I dialled her number and decided to call her instead. I couldn’t explain it all in a text.
“Ally, he never told me he was married until I had already fallen for him. He never wore his ring when he was at the club. It just never phased me as a possibility!”
“Well why didn’t you leave after you found out? Find someone else you could fall in love with, who wasn’t married!”
“I’m sorry” I started choking up, “I couldn’t let him go, I was in love. I still am…”
“How is she going to react when she finds out?” she asked me.
“She knew before any of this leaked” I sighed, “Max had told her”
“Wow” was all she said.
“I don’t need your bitching right now Ally. I need my sister” I sighed.
“I’m sorry” she replied, “this just didn’t seem like you, I didn’t believe it at first”
“It’s ok” I said, “have you talked to mom and dad yet?”
“They’re both furious”
“Oh joy” I said leaning back on the couch.
“You need to talk to them”
“I will call them tonight, I’ll talk to you soon”
I put my phone down and ignored any texts I received from the past little while.
*Max’s POV*
I couldn’t believe this had been leaked. I raced home to find Liz in a heap of tears. I sat next to her and she just cried in my chest. What the hell was I doing? I was ruining everything we had together. I was breaking her heart, and this media wasn’t helping. It was only a matter of time I would be bombarded with press and questions at the next post-game conference.
“I’m so sorry Liz” I told her, “I didn’t want this to happen”
“Well it did Max, and you fell in love with her, how the hell will you decide? And how are you going to face your team again?” she asked me.
“I’ll survive” I said.
“Well good luck with that, but until you make a fucking decision, you are not staying in this place with me, move out to Jordan’s, Fleury’s or go to your freaking whore, I don’t care”
“Ok, that’s it Liz, that whore is the woman I’m in love with. And for the record she’s not a whore, and she is being a lot more mature about this whole situation than you have, she has known I was married for the past four months and has not acted in any way against you. She almost told me to go back to you…”
“She sounds wonderful, maybe I should meet her” she said sarcastically.
“Ok, now you’re just being a smart ass” I said standing up.
“Well she does” she said seriously, “sounds like you two would make a good match”
“You’re unbelievable!” I said raising my voice.
“You’re the one who cheated on me, don’t start acting like the freaking victim Max! You knew this would come back and bite you in the ass!”
“I’m leaving” I said going to the bedroom. I packed what I could and shut the bedroom door behind me.
“Have a good one” I said sarcastically walking out the door. Probably for the last time.
*Julie’s POV*
I was going insane. Everything hurt right now. After this how could he not go back to her? Why would he go back to the one who caused this whole mess in the first place? I got a call from my boss, who fired me on the spot. Great, no job, no Max, my life is done.
I sat on my couch trying to avoid the media coverage on this whole scandal. But it was impossible. It was all over the place, tomorrow it would be in the papers and tabloids, I dreaded the morning when I would have to see a picture of us, the night our worlds collided. The night that would change our lives completely.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Chapter 2
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*Julie’s POV*
I sat in the living room literally glancing at my phone every few minutes. It’s ridiculous how nervous I was. I couldn’t even watch sports, or even listen to music. He clouded my mind completely and I couldn’t do anything but think about what was happening over there. I wanted to call him so badly but knew it could mess it up if he was in the middle of a conversation with her. I really got myself into a mess, and now that I’ve fallen for him, I can’t clean up the mess.
*Max’s POV*
I finally told her. She hadn’t said a word since I spoke the dreaded “I’ve been cheating on you”. All I could hear were small sobs coming from our bedroom. She locked the door. I have been sitting against the wall for the past hour waiting to see if she would face me, I wouldn’t blame her if she threw all of my things at me now. I finally saw the door open and stood up quickly. Her face was tear streaked and there were still some falling.
“Max…” she said quietly, she could barely even speak my name.
“What baby?” I replied.
“Don’t call me that” she snapped wiping a tear away.
“Sorry” I whispered.
“Me or her” she simply said.
“Excuse me?”
“Me or her?” she said again.
“Don’t ask me that” I replied.
She scoffed and walked into the living room.
“Is it that hard to choose? Between your wife and the whore?”
“Don’t call her that” I said. Bad move.
“Now you’re defending her?” she said crossing her arms.
I didn’t respond.
“Who is she?” she asked me.
“That doesn’t matter” I said.
“It fucking matters to me Max, you tell me who she is!”
“Julie Miller” I said quickly.
“How and when did you meet her? How did this whole thing start?”
“It was after a big win, we were all down at Diesel, the guys and I were drinking. She was a writer for some sports magazine, Kris invited her, and it went a tad far…”
“How far?” she asked.
“Not that far”
“How fucking far Max?” she tried to stay calm.
“We made out…small room in the back of the club, we were both drunk…”
“And how did you remember her?”
“I saw her the next day, she was doing more interviews…we hit it off”
“How long ago?”
“6 months” I said quickly.
She sighed and closed her eyes.
“What do I do with this?” she whispered.
“I don’t know Liz…” I sighed.
“I should be throwing you out, all the times you told me you were out with the guys after the game…you were with her…this morning when I called you, you didn’t crash at Kris’…you were with her…weren’t you?”
I just nodded.
“What does she think of all of this?”
“She’s in love Liz”
“Are you?” she asked.
I couldn’t say it, even though I knew I was, but I loved her so completely too.
“Yes…but I love you too”
“Well good luck with that” she scoffed looking out the window.
I just pursed my lips and looked at her. Her blonde hair was pulled up in a messy bun and she was in sweats and a t-shirt. My t-shirt. Her back was to me and I just looked her up and down. I walked towards her and wrapped my hands around her waist, she didn’t move. I moved my hand up under her shirt onto her soft flat stomach.
“Don’t do that” she said pushing it down.
“Why?” I asked kissing the back of her neck.
“You know…oh…I can’t say no to you” she said trying to move away.
“Come on”
“No Max…I-I’m sorry, I think you need to go…let me think”
“Ok…” I sighed, “I’ll be at Jordan’s if you need anything”
“Will you really?”
“Of course” I said.
“Ok…”
I knew she didn’t believe me. I also knew I probably wouldn’t end up staying at Jordan’s…
*Julie’s POV*
I waited for two hours hoping my phone would ring, finally I saw his name on my phone and heard my ringtone. I anxiously grabbed it and answered.
“Hey” I simply said.
“Went better than expected” he said.
“And?” I replied.
“She needs to think about it” he said, “some space”
“Oh…” was all I said.
“I’m going to Jordan’s…we have a game tonight…and we leave tomorrow for our week long road trip…I think staying away from both of you…with some time to think and maybe I can clear my head…figure this all out”
“I’m going to miss you like crazy”
“I’ll miss you too, but I need to go Jules”
“I love you” I said.
“…bye” was all he said and he hung up.
This hurt…a lot and I didn’t know what I was supposed to do now. I was nothing without him, there was a huge hole in my heart only he could fill and I knew she probably felt the same way which hurt even more. I can’t share him. He’s either mine or her’s…not ours, it didn’t work that way.
I sat down on the couch and stared at the wall for an hour. Thoughts rushing in and out through my mind, about Max, my life…the day I met him, how I was in love the moment he spoke to me. His gorgeous dark eyes, his adorable smile…beautiful dark hair, the scruff on his face that only he could make look good. He was perfect in my eyes, beautiful…and perfect.
*Max’s POV*
I sat at Jordan’s, he was trying to process everything I just told him. You could tell he was thinking hard too, you could almost see the smoke coming from his head.
“Ok…it’s been an hour of pure silence” I finally said standing up.
“Dude, I can’t make this decision for you. You’re in love with both of them, but who is the one you can see yourself with? The one you constantly talk about…except around the other guys..? The one who has stuck with you through the hard times, like finding out you’re married…”
I think that last part was a hint. I knew he preferred Julie…he never liked Liz.
“Well I can see your preference” I said standing up.
“She’s incredible and she loves you so much Max, how did Julie react when she found out you were married?” he asked.
“She was shocked, upset…but she stayed with me”
“And Liz?”
“She cried, locked herself in the room and yelled at me. Now…she’s thinking” I sighed.
“This is up to you” he simply said.
“Thanks Jor” I said, “I need to grab my stuff before practice…it’s at Julie’s”
“Go” he said, “do what you have to do”
I slowly drove back to the apartment I had left a few hours ago…to go tell my wife I was in love with two women. I walked slowly up the stairs and unlocked the door.
*Julie’s POV*
I heard him come in and didn’t look at him. I kept staring at the blank wall. I finally felt him sit beside me. I finally put my head down but didn’t look at him.
“Max…I thought you weren‘t--”
“Julie…I love you”
“I know you do…I love you too, but…why are you here?”
“Don’t talk”
I finally looked up at him and just from his eyes you could see he was angry, frustrated, upset…I didn’t know what to do so I looked down at the floor. He put his hand under my chin and lifted my head, I couldn’t help but look at him. He leaned in to kiss me…I pulled away. “What?”
“You’re married” I simply said.
“Never stopped you before” he said leaning in for a kiss, I stopped him.
“Max, this time is different, this time she knows…” I stood up and faced away from him.
I heard him stand up and come behind me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and put his head on my shoulder. I closed my eyes and took in his scent. This may be the last time I ever do. It killed me to even think about that.
“Max, I think you have to go now” I said pulling away from his grasp, I feared it was the last time I would feel those arms around me, “I don’t want you missing practice”
“I’m going to miss you” he said.
“I know” I replied.
He went to the bedroom and gathered up his stuff quickly shoving it all in his bag.
“Bye Jules”
“Bye Max. Play hard and score a goal for me, cause I’ll be watching”
He just chuckled and placed a small kiss on my lips.
“I’m coming back for you” he said.
“Don’t say that now” I sighed closing my eyes, “tell me when you get back. Think, please”
“I love you Julie Miller”
“And I love you Talbot, now go”
He grabbed his stuff and shut the door behind him. I sighed thinking this could be the last time for us. Everything we went through. I knew he would pick his wife. He won’t give up on a life he promised her to be with someone like me…it just wouldn’t make sense….
*Julie’s POV*
I sat in the living room literally glancing at my phone every few minutes. It’s ridiculous how nervous I was. I couldn’t even watch sports, or even listen to music. He clouded my mind completely and I couldn’t do anything but think about what was happening over there. I wanted to call him so badly but knew it could mess it up if he was in the middle of a conversation with her. I really got myself into a mess, and now that I’ve fallen for him, I can’t clean up the mess.
*Max’s POV*
I finally told her. She hadn’t said a word since I spoke the dreaded “I’ve been cheating on you”. All I could hear were small sobs coming from our bedroom. She locked the door. I have been sitting against the wall for the past hour waiting to see if she would face me, I wouldn’t blame her if she threw all of my things at me now. I finally saw the door open and stood up quickly. Her face was tear streaked and there were still some falling.
“Max…” she said quietly, she could barely even speak my name.
“What baby?” I replied.
“Don’t call me that” she snapped wiping a tear away.
“Sorry” I whispered.
“Me or her” she simply said.
“Excuse me?”
“Me or her?” she said again.
“Don’t ask me that” I replied.
She scoffed and walked into the living room.
“Is it that hard to choose? Between your wife and the whore?”
“Don’t call her that” I said. Bad move.
“Now you’re defending her?” she said crossing her arms.
I didn’t respond.
“Who is she?” she asked me.
“That doesn’t matter” I said.
“It fucking matters to me Max, you tell me who she is!”
“Julie Miller” I said quickly.
“How and when did you meet her? How did this whole thing start?”
“It was after a big win, we were all down at Diesel, the guys and I were drinking. She was a writer for some sports magazine, Kris invited her, and it went a tad far…”
“How far?” she asked.
“Not that far”
“How fucking far Max?” she tried to stay calm.
“We made out…small room in the back of the club, we were both drunk…”
“And how did you remember her?”
“I saw her the next day, she was doing more interviews…we hit it off”
“How long ago?”
“6 months” I said quickly.
She sighed and closed her eyes.
“What do I do with this?” she whispered.
“I don’t know Liz…” I sighed.
“I should be throwing you out, all the times you told me you were out with the guys after the game…you were with her…this morning when I called you, you didn’t crash at Kris’…you were with her…weren’t you?”
I just nodded.
“What does she think of all of this?”
“She’s in love Liz”
“Are you?” she asked.
I couldn’t say it, even though I knew I was, but I loved her so completely too.
“Yes…but I love you too”
“Well good luck with that” she scoffed looking out the window.
I just pursed my lips and looked at her. Her blonde hair was pulled up in a messy bun and she was in sweats and a t-shirt. My t-shirt. Her back was to me and I just looked her up and down. I walked towards her and wrapped my hands around her waist, she didn’t move. I moved my hand up under her shirt onto her soft flat stomach.
“Don’t do that” she said pushing it down.
“Why?” I asked kissing the back of her neck.
“You know…oh…I can’t say no to you” she said trying to move away.
“Come on”
“No Max…I-I’m sorry, I think you need to go…let me think”
“Ok…” I sighed, “I’ll be at Jordan’s if you need anything”
“Will you really?”
“Of course” I said.
“Ok…”
I knew she didn’t believe me. I also knew I probably wouldn’t end up staying at Jordan’s…
*Julie’s POV*
I waited for two hours hoping my phone would ring, finally I saw his name on my phone and heard my ringtone. I anxiously grabbed it and answered.
“Hey” I simply said.
“Went better than expected” he said.
“And?” I replied.
“She needs to think about it” he said, “some space”
“Oh…” was all I said.
“I’m going to Jordan’s…we have a game tonight…and we leave tomorrow for our week long road trip…I think staying away from both of you…with some time to think and maybe I can clear my head…figure this all out”
“I’m going to miss you like crazy”
“I’ll miss you too, but I need to go Jules”
“I love you” I said.
“…bye” was all he said and he hung up.
This hurt…a lot and I didn’t know what I was supposed to do now. I was nothing without him, there was a huge hole in my heart only he could fill and I knew she probably felt the same way which hurt even more. I can’t share him. He’s either mine or her’s…not ours, it didn’t work that way.
I sat down on the couch and stared at the wall for an hour. Thoughts rushing in and out through my mind, about Max, my life…the day I met him, how I was in love the moment he spoke to me. His gorgeous dark eyes, his adorable smile…beautiful dark hair, the scruff on his face that only he could make look good. He was perfect in my eyes, beautiful…and perfect.
*Max’s POV*
I sat at Jordan’s, he was trying to process everything I just told him. You could tell he was thinking hard too, you could almost see the smoke coming from his head.
“Ok…it’s been an hour of pure silence” I finally said standing up.
“Dude, I can’t make this decision for you. You’re in love with both of them, but who is the one you can see yourself with? The one you constantly talk about…except around the other guys..? The one who has stuck with you through the hard times, like finding out you’re married…”
I think that last part was a hint. I knew he preferred Julie…he never liked Liz.
“Well I can see your preference” I said standing up.
“She’s incredible and she loves you so much Max, how did Julie react when she found out you were married?” he asked.
“She was shocked, upset…but she stayed with me”
“And Liz?”
“She cried, locked herself in the room and yelled at me. Now…she’s thinking” I sighed.
“This is up to you” he simply said.
“Thanks Jor” I said, “I need to grab my stuff before practice…it’s at Julie’s”
“Go” he said, “do what you have to do”
I slowly drove back to the apartment I had left a few hours ago…to go tell my wife I was in love with two women. I walked slowly up the stairs and unlocked the door.
*Julie’s POV*
I heard him come in and didn’t look at him. I kept staring at the blank wall. I finally felt him sit beside me. I finally put my head down but didn’t look at him.
“Max…I thought you weren‘t--”
“Julie…I love you”
“I know you do…I love you too, but…why are you here?”
“Don’t talk”
I finally looked up at him and just from his eyes you could see he was angry, frustrated, upset…I didn’t know what to do so I looked down at the floor. He put his hand under my chin and lifted my head, I couldn’t help but look at him. He leaned in to kiss me…I pulled away. “What?”
“You’re married” I simply said.
“Never stopped you before” he said leaning in for a kiss, I stopped him.
“Max, this time is different, this time she knows…” I stood up and faced away from him.
I heard him stand up and come behind me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and put his head on my shoulder. I closed my eyes and took in his scent. This may be the last time I ever do. It killed me to even think about that.
“Max, I think you have to go now” I said pulling away from his grasp, I feared it was the last time I would feel those arms around me, “I don’t want you missing practice”
“I’m going to miss you” he said.
“I know” I replied.
He went to the bedroom and gathered up his stuff quickly shoving it all in his bag.
“Bye Jules”
“Bye Max. Play hard and score a goal for me, cause I’ll be watching”
He just chuckled and placed a small kiss on my lips.
“I’m coming back for you” he said.
“Don’t say that now” I sighed closing my eyes, “tell me when you get back. Think, please”
“I love you Julie Miller”
“And I love you Talbot, now go”
He grabbed his stuff and shut the door behind him. I sighed thinking this could be the last time for us. Everything we went through. I knew he would pick his wife. He won’t give up on a life he promised her to be with someone like me…it just wouldn’t make sense….
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Chapter 1
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My eyes fluttered open from the bright morning sun shining in my window. I turned over and saw the beautiful face of the one I loved. I laid there and watched him sleep, so serene, like he didn’t have a care in the world, when I knew very well he did.
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“You’re married!?” I exclaimed staring at him.
He couldn’t even respond he just nodded.
“What am I supposed to do with that Max?” I asked him standing across the room. I stared at him waiting for a response.
“I’m not going anywhere if that’s what you think” he finally replied.
“Max I am not taking you away from a wife…a potential…family” I cringed at the word.
He just stared at the floor.
“So you’re going to be with both of us?” I asked him, “have a wife and your whore on the side? Am I right?”
“Don’t say that, I love you” he said touching my arm.
“Yah, but that’s not what she would be thinking” I said turning my head in the other direction.
I moved away and turned to look out the window. The sun was setting, I figured he would have to leave soon, get back to his…wife.
“Jules, don’t be like this” he said, “soon I’m going to leave her and it will be you and me, I promise”
I looked at him pleadingly, “Ok”. Of course I believed him, why would he lie to me?
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That conversation happened 4 months ago, he hasn’t even tried to leave her. I’m beginning to think I was too naïve…and still am. I laid in bed watching him sleep and looking at the clock, I knew she would call eventually. I felt movement and looked over, I just smiled as I saw his eyes open.
“Morning baby” he said.
“Hi” I said.
That moment his phone rang and I sighed and turned over. I knew it was her and I knew he would run there the moment she needed him. I heard the 30 second conversation before he hung up.
“And?” was all I said.
“I need to go” he sighed standing up.
“Of course you do” I snapped.
“What do you expect me to do Julie!?” he snapped back.
“What happened to “soon I’m going to leave her to be with you, it will be you and me”?” I said to him, “you lied to me.
“I didn’t” he said getting dressed.
“Max…you tell me you love me…I love you, so completely it hurts sometimes, like right now” I began, “and I know she loves you, but I will say one thing, this woman can never love you like I love you, and you can’t love her the way you love me”
He just stared at me, I stayed focused on him but eventually put my head down. He grabbed his keys.
“I have to go” he sighed.
“Fine Max, call me when you decide to be a man…and not be such a coward” I said slamming the bedroom door.
I sat on the bed as tears started pouring out of me till I could hardly breathe anymore. How did I get myself into this kind of mess? I should have left him a long time ago, the moment he told me he was married. All I want is for him to be happy and if he is happy with her…maybe it should stay that way.
The moment I finally cried my last tear I figured I should eat. I opened the bedroom door and none other than Max was standing right there.
“What?” I said not looking at him.
“Please just talk to me” he said.
“I’m talking” I replied coldly.
“I will go tell her I’m leaving if that’s what you want” he said, almost like it was effortless to do it.
“Max, of course I want you to up and leave her, but is that what you want to do? Do you want me…or her?”
*Max’s POV*
I looked at her trying to process what she just asked me. Who did I want? I’ve been married for almost two years and I’m in love with someone else. How do I pick between the two loves of my life?
Julie is amazing. She has these stunning blue eyes that shine every time she looks at me, every time she smiles. Oh and that smile, it could light up a room. She has this soft skin that is almost addicting every time I touch her, and her kiss, you just can’t resist. She has this personality that you could never get bored with, she’s always saying something, whether it’s about sports, herself, her family, friends, or me. When she talks about me, she speaks it differently, you can tell how in love she is. Even if you didn’t know who she was talking about…you’d feel it. When she is passionate about something…she goes for it and doesn’t hold back. She’s strong, and stubborn, she never let’s anyone see her cry, not even me.
Liz, was my high school sweetheart. She’s beautiful. She has this strawberry blonde hair and these piercing green eyes, they change color with her moods, and I’m not exaggerating. She’s always treated me with such respect and I knew she was the one from the moment I met her. Her laugh, it gets me every time, and her smile, no words to describe it. She’s sweet, loving and can be quite jealous honestly, I’m not going to lie. But she’s an amazing woman.
I still hadn’t answered and I think that was her sign.
“Obviously it’s not me” she said walking around me.
“Don’t say that” I said, “I do love you”
“I can’t share you Max, ok? It’s me or her, take you’re time, think about it, talk to her I don’t care, but you can’t have us both…she would agree with me”
*Julie’s POV*
I wanted to drop to my knees and beg him to pick me, but I was stronger than that and he knew I wouldn’t sink that low. He’s never seen me vulnerable, and I really don’t want to start now. He knows I love him and I know she must adore him…how could you not? But how can I even look at myself in the mirror and be happy keeping a man away from the woman he is supposed to spend his life with? I just wish he would make a decision, except for the very fact that he is incredibly indecisive, not a good quality to have in this situation.
“I need to tell her” he sighed…finally.
“Alone?” I asked him almost in a whisper.
“I don’t want her jumping you…so yes” he said. He said it seriously but I couldn’t help but let out a chuckle. He just smirked and walked towards me.
“No matter what happens” he began, taking my hand, “I love you and I always will”
“I love you too” I replied, I kept my tears back as he kissed my forehead and wrapped me in a hug.
“Good luck” I told him as he pulled back.
“I’ll call you” he said.
My eyes fluttered open from the bright morning sun shining in my window. I turned over and saw the beautiful face of the one I loved. I laid there and watched him sleep, so serene, like he didn’t have a care in the world, when I knew very well he did.
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“You’re married!?” I exclaimed staring at him.
He couldn’t even respond he just nodded.
“What am I supposed to do with that Max?” I asked him standing across the room. I stared at him waiting for a response.
“I’m not going anywhere if that’s what you think” he finally replied.
“Max I am not taking you away from a wife…a potential…family” I cringed at the word.
He just stared at the floor.
“So you’re going to be with both of us?” I asked him, “have a wife and your whore on the side? Am I right?”
“Don’t say that, I love you” he said touching my arm.
“Yah, but that’s not what she would be thinking” I said turning my head in the other direction.
I moved away and turned to look out the window. The sun was setting, I figured he would have to leave soon, get back to his…wife.
“Jules, don’t be like this” he said, “soon I’m going to leave her and it will be you and me, I promise”
I looked at him pleadingly, “Ok”. Of course I believed him, why would he lie to me?
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That conversation happened 4 months ago, he hasn’t even tried to leave her. I’m beginning to think I was too naïve…and still am. I laid in bed watching him sleep and looking at the clock, I knew she would call eventually. I felt movement and looked over, I just smiled as I saw his eyes open.
“Morning baby” he said.
“Hi” I said.
That moment his phone rang and I sighed and turned over. I knew it was her and I knew he would run there the moment she needed him. I heard the 30 second conversation before he hung up.
“And?” was all I said.
“I need to go” he sighed standing up.
“Of course you do” I snapped.
“What do you expect me to do Julie!?” he snapped back.
“What happened to “soon I’m going to leave her to be with you, it will be you and me”?” I said to him, “you lied to me.
“I didn’t” he said getting dressed.
“Max…you tell me you love me…I love you, so completely it hurts sometimes, like right now” I began, “and I know she loves you, but I will say one thing, this woman can never love you like I love you, and you can’t love her the way you love me”
He just stared at me, I stayed focused on him but eventually put my head down. He grabbed his keys.
“I have to go” he sighed.
“Fine Max, call me when you decide to be a man…and not be such a coward” I said slamming the bedroom door.
I sat on the bed as tears started pouring out of me till I could hardly breathe anymore. How did I get myself into this kind of mess? I should have left him a long time ago, the moment he told me he was married. All I want is for him to be happy and if he is happy with her…maybe it should stay that way.
The moment I finally cried my last tear I figured I should eat. I opened the bedroom door and none other than Max was standing right there.
“What?” I said not looking at him.
“Please just talk to me” he said.
“I’m talking” I replied coldly.
“I will go tell her I’m leaving if that’s what you want” he said, almost like it was effortless to do it.
“Max, of course I want you to up and leave her, but is that what you want to do? Do you want me…or her?”
*Max’s POV*
I looked at her trying to process what she just asked me. Who did I want? I’ve been married for almost two years and I’m in love with someone else. How do I pick between the two loves of my life?
Julie is amazing. She has these stunning blue eyes that shine every time she looks at me, every time she smiles. Oh and that smile, it could light up a room. She has this soft skin that is almost addicting every time I touch her, and her kiss, you just can’t resist. She has this personality that you could never get bored with, she’s always saying something, whether it’s about sports, herself, her family, friends, or me. When she talks about me, she speaks it differently, you can tell how in love she is. Even if you didn’t know who she was talking about…you’d feel it. When she is passionate about something…she goes for it and doesn’t hold back. She’s strong, and stubborn, she never let’s anyone see her cry, not even me.
Liz, was my high school sweetheart. She’s beautiful. She has this strawberry blonde hair and these piercing green eyes, they change color with her moods, and I’m not exaggerating. She’s always treated me with such respect and I knew she was the one from the moment I met her. Her laugh, it gets me every time, and her smile, no words to describe it. She’s sweet, loving and can be quite jealous honestly, I’m not going to lie. But she’s an amazing woman.
I still hadn’t answered and I think that was her sign.
“Obviously it’s not me” she said walking around me.
“Don’t say that” I said, “I do love you”
“I can’t share you Max, ok? It’s me or her, take you’re time, think about it, talk to her I don’t care, but you can’t have us both…she would agree with me”
*Julie’s POV*
I wanted to drop to my knees and beg him to pick me, but I was stronger than that and he knew I wouldn’t sink that low. He’s never seen me vulnerable, and I really don’t want to start now. He knows I love him and I know she must adore him…how could you not? But how can I even look at myself in the mirror and be happy keeping a man away from the woman he is supposed to spend his life with? I just wish he would make a decision, except for the very fact that he is incredibly indecisive, not a good quality to have in this situation.
“I need to tell her” he sighed…finally.
“Alone?” I asked him almost in a whisper.
“I don’t want her jumping you…so yes” he said. He said it seriously but I couldn’t help but let out a chuckle. He just smirked and walked towards me.
“No matter what happens” he began, taking my hand, “I love you and I always will”
“I love you too” I replied, I kept my tears back as he kissed my forehead and wrapped me in a hug.
“Good luck” I told him as he pulled back.
“I’ll call you” he said.
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