Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Chapter 17

OMGosh, it's been...almost 3 months since I posted a chapter. I AM SO SORRY. I've been working, been away alot and working on other stories and I completely forgot about this one. I have ideas though and they will be coming up. So hope you enjoy this chapter :)

Over the summer Max had finally finished up everything with his divorce. Now all he had to do was sign the papers. You have no idea how long I’ve waited for this day. I know it sounds selfish, but when you love someone, you want them all to yourself. He’s not tied to her anymore, he’s all mine.

I was getting bigger, and to be honest, I hated it. I know I’m carrying another life, and I can’t wait for the chance to raise a child, but feeling like this really sucks. I can’t wait to have this baby.

“Max, I have an ultrasound tomorrow, around the same time as your meeting with the lawyer”

“It’s okay” he said, “You know I’ll be fine”

“Okay good” I smiled.

“How are you feeling?” he asked.

“Like shit” I sighed, “I don’t feel attractive at all”

“Jules” he replied, “You’re beautiful, don’t forget that, and it will all be worth it when the baby comes”

“Which is what I wanted to talk to you about…do you want to know the gender? I’ve been debating it for a while”

He sighed, “I don’t know…I think I’d rather it be a surprise”

“Okay good, me too”

“Only if you’re sure though” he said, “because if you change your mind I’m all for it”

I just laughed, “Okay, I’ll see how I feel”


The next morning I headed down for my ultrasound. I thought about what Max had said last night. I just can’t decide if I want to go through with it or not. It would be a lot easier to pick a name if we did know.

“Everything looks really good” my doctor said as I sat up, “I know you’ve been debating it for a while, so I thought I should ask if you want to know the gender”

I sat there for a moment contemplating whether I wanted to know. I thought about Max, and the fact that he would support anything I decided to do, but I think he’d be devastated if I told him the gender.

I sighed, “I think I’ll leave it for now, I know he wants it to be a surprise”

He just smiled, “Alright, well I will be seeing you in a couple months”

“Thank you”

I climbed into the drivers seat of my car when I heard my phone ringing. I reached across the passenger seat and saw Max’s number. I quickly answered, I hope everything went okay.

“Hey” I answered, “How’d it go?”

“Julie…there’s some bad news”

I tensed up, and my breath got caught in my throat, “what?”

“Jules…Liz is pregnant”

I was stunned, I couldn’t even speak.


I just shook my head, “please tell me she’s seeing someone else”

“She is…but she’s about as far along as you are, maybe a month longer”

“What are you saying Max?”

“Jules, she’s saying it’s mine….”

“Oh…” was all that managed to come out of my mouth. What else was I supposed to say?

“This makes things a lot more difficult now, doesn’t it?” he sighed.

“Sure does, custody battle, and the way your marriage ended…you know it could possibly go in her favor” but then it hit me.

“Wait, this just occurred to me…if she’s pregnant…this means that you were still sleeping with her when you were with me?”

“Julie…she was my wife”

I know I shouldn’t overreact about this, but just the thought of him sleeping with her when he was with me, even though they were married, still made me sick to my stomach.

“I’ll be at home…we can talk about this then”

I hung up before he could say another word. I thought this was over, no more fighting, I guess I was wrong. I didn’t want her in my life anymore, and I thought today would get her out of my life, today should have been the day. Now, she could be in my life a lot more than I want, and she will do everything in her power to make it miserable.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Chapter 16

*I know ! It's a miracle I have actually updated this story ! I need to think of some ideas to keep it going a little bit longer. Enjoy this for now, and I will do my best to get another update up sooon :)*

I grabbed anything I could and shoved it into my bag, “I’m going to Pittsburgh, I need to see him” I told Ally as she sat on the edge of my bed.

“Then I’m coming with you” she said.

I stopped to look at her, “What?”

“I’m tired of not being able to see Kris, and I know he’d be around, does he know you‘re coming?”

“Yes, he’s going to be at the airport” I said, “Go get your stuff, and I’ll see if I can get another ticket”

“Thanks Jules” she smiled running towards her bedroom.

Luckily I got another ticket for Ally and we were on our way in no time. I was anxious, nervous, and excited to see him again. I didn’t know what I would say or do, I just knew I needed to see his face again, feel his arms around me.

The flight was a little rough, I wasn’t a frequent flyer, and when I did fly, I did not enjoy it. We landed and the moment I stepped into the airport, I scanned the crowd. I felt someone grab my waist and I turned around to see Max. My breath was hitched in my throat, I couldn’t even speak. I just wrapped my arms around his neck and held on for dear life.

“I missed you, so much” I mumbled into his neck.

“I missed you too” he replied.

I pulled back to see the beard completely gone, and I saw the face I fell in love with, “I’m so proud of you, you were absolutely incredible”

“I wish you were there”

“Well I’m here now, and I promise you, I’m not going anywhere”

“Where’s Kris?” Ally asked anxiously.

“He’s actually waiting in the car”

“WHAT!? I waited here to watch you guys…make up, and he’s been there the whole time”

“Sorry” he shrugged.

“Well, are you going to show me where the car is or not?!” she exclaimed grabbing the last of her bags.

I grabbed the last of my bags and Max led us to his car. Kris came out to help before he spotted Ally with us.


She just dropped her bags and jumped into his arms. I just smiled, to see my baby sister happy was the cherry on top of this amazing day.

“I guess I should have told you she was coming” Max said.

“That would have been nice” he laughed, “but I like surprises” he just smiled down at her and kissed the top of her head.

We went to Max’s apartment, not before dropping Ally and Kris off at Kris’. The fact that I was here with him again, was unbelievable.

“So when’s your day with the cup?” I asked sitting on the couch.

“Not til August, but you do know I have surgery in July”

“Oh right, your shoulder”

“Yah” he replied sitting down next to me, “it’s going to be a while before I can play again. They said a five month recovery”

“Well that brings you to December…” I said, “That’s not so bad”

“I guess…but I don’t want to think about that now” he said putting his hand on my stomach, “how’s the baby”

“Great” I smiled, “I need to make another appointment in the next few days”

“I’m coming with you”

“Max, don’t worry about me, worry about your surgery, and your divorce…”

He just cleared his throat and sat back, “you know how hard this is going to be”

“And I have no doubt that we will get through it” I replied.

He just smiled and placed his lips on mine gently. It’s been so long since I felt that, I never knew how much I really missed it. This moment, right now, today, was exactly where I wanted to be.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Chapter 15

*I know it's been ages, and I know this isn't very long, but it's the best I can come up with right at the moment, so I hoopess you like it :) Commmentts pleasseee*

It’s June 12th. The Penguins and Wings were fighting for the Stanley Cup, and tonight was Game 7, the decision would be made and I was terrified.

I sat on the couch in a pair of sweats and a Penguins hoodie. I’m about 4 months pregnant at this point, my stomach felt like it was bulging out and there was nothing I could do about it. I pulled my knees up to my chin and wrapped my arms around them as I watched the pre-game show go to Joe Louis for the opening faceoff. My stomach was turning, I was really nervous for them, I could only imagine how they are feeling.

“You want to be there, don’t you?” my dad asked.

“More than you know” I replied my voice breaking.

“I think you should see something” he told me standing up and grabbing his laptop. He set it in front of me and clicked on an article he had saved, “I knew I would have to show you eventually…”

I just set the laptop on my laptop and looked at the headline.

“Talbot and wife Liz to split”

I put my hand over my mouth in shock. Was it true, I read down the article.

“…after an affair with ex-reporter Julie Miller, Liz had finally had enough and the split was a unanimous decision between both…”

“Holy shit” I said quietly.

I looked up at the tv screen and watched as the game had finally started. I saw him. If he cared he would have called and told me. He would have tried to find me. But then again, it is the Stanley Cup Finals.

“If he really loves you, he’ll be back” my dad said.

“Thanks daddy” I smiled.

The game went really well. Max had already scored a goal and they were ahead 1-0. I was so proud of him, he was playing his heart out, you could tell. They all were.

When what looked like an innocent hit, Crosby came off, limping in the second period. Everyone was on the edge of their seats at this point, would it affect anything?

Max scored another second period goal to bring the lead up to 2-0. I almost knocked over a lamp, jumping from excitement. On another note, his beard…it had to go.

By this time, the game was 2-1, and the last 2 minutes of the third period were the longest 2 minutes of my life. The refs stopped play I don’t know how many times in one minute. Finally in the last few seconds, the Wings were all around the Penguins net, and had an incredible chance but Fleury got in the way of it, sealing the 2-1 win, winning the Stanley cup.

As I watched Sidney finally hoist the cup, I almost cried. I watched every player get their chance, and when it came to Max, I couldn’t help but smile, with a few tears. I wanted to be there, I wanted to jump onto the ice the moment they won, I wanted to wrap my arms around him, tell him I’m so proud of him, and tell him I love him. So much.

I didn’t know how long it would be before I would be able to get a hold of him. They’d be partying afterwards, I would be the last thing he would be thinking about.

I heard my phone vibrating and I reached to the coffee table to grab it. Max. Was I dreaming?

“Max…” I answered.

“Hi. I didn‘t think you‘d answer”

“Well I had to tell you I’m proud of you”

“I wish you were here” he replied, “I miss you”

“So do I” I said choking up, “I love you, so much”

“I love you too” he replied.

“And I need you, this baby needs you” I was crying rivers right now, “I need you Max”

“I’m here baby, and I’m not going anywhere”

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Chapter 14

I sat on the bed I hadn’t slept in in five years. I just stared at the white closed door in front of me, letting my thoughts flow. I didn’t know what to think anymore. First Max leaves, now my sister hates me. What else could possible go wrong?

*Max’s POV*

Liz and I, things still were not working. I was ready to give up. We were going to counselling, doing everything they told us to do, we still fought, bickered, nothing was working. My family told me to keep trying, I was done trying, I just wanted Julie back.

Liz was gone and I had the place to myself. I dialled Julie’s number and it went straight to voice mail. She must have her phone off. I called her apartment, no answer. I texted her, and waited to see if I would get a response. Nothing. I tried calling again, voice mail. I was starting to get a bit worried honestly.

I grabbed my coat and threw on a pair of shoes while I grabbed the keys off the endtable. I shut the door behind me and practically ran to my car. I sped through the streets of Pittsburgh, hoping she was home.

I let myself in and went up the flight of stairs to her apartment. First door on the left. I knocked a few times but there was no answer. I sighed and made my way back to my car before a door opened near me and I turned around, to see an older lady.

“Are you looking for Julie Miller?” she asked.
“I am”
“Well son, she left yesterday. Packed up her things quite quickly, without warning, and was gone”
“Really?” I asked, “she’s…gone?”
“She’s gone” she shrugged.
“Did she mention where she was going?” I asked anxiously.
“She never said a word. I’m sorry”
“It’s alright. Thank you” I weakly smiled.

I slowly walked back to my car. She’s gone? She’s really gone. I decided to try my last resort. Ally.

“Ally, it’s Max”
“Do you happen to know where Julie went? The landlady said she was gone”
“Yah she left. She left Pittsburgh all together, she couldn’t be around, with the possibility of running into you. Do you know what that would do to her?”
“Why am I helping her?”
“We just got in a huge fight. I’m pissed off at her, and I’m still trying to help her”
“You mean she’s there…with you?”
She hesitated, “no…”
“She is!” I replied, “where are you?
“I can’t tell you” she sighed.
“Max…I need to go. I’m sorry about what happened between you guys, maybe next time you should think twice about leaving her…” and all I heard was the dial tone.

*Julie’s POV*

I heard talking in Ally’s room. As I moved closer, I heard her talking about me…then I heard his name, Max.

“Were you just talking to Max?” I asked barging through her bedroom door.
“Ever hear of knocking?” she snapped.
“Ally?” I pleaded.
“Yes” she sighed, “he was asking about you. I guess he just found out you’re gone. You never told him?”
“No, cause he would just tell me to stay” I huffed, “this is better for both of us. We can move on with our lives”
“I don’t think you’re going to move on Julie” she said.
“You just barged into my room asking about Max…like a lovestruck teenager”
I just sighed, “Yah”
“Julie…I’ve been thinking, and I’m sorry about earlier. It was a stupid fight…”
“I’m sorry too. I have been being a bit selfish lately”
“Yah so have I” she replied.
I just reached out for a hug and she stood up and wrapped her arms around me.
“Have you talked to Kris?”
“I did” she smiled, “we’re going to see each other when he is in Montreal next. In about a month…we’ll text and call until then” you couldn’t wipe that smile off her face if you tried.
“I’m happy for you” I smiled.
“Thank you” she said.

I gave her another quick hug and went to my bedroom. Seeing her so happy, made me happy, but it also disgusted me in a way. I used to be that happy, I just don’t understand where it could have all went wrong. You know what…I’m going to call him.

I grabbed my phone that I’ve had turned off for the past few days and turned it on. It seems he beat me to the punch. He left 20 messages, 25 text messages, and 35 missed calls. I immediately called him, sick to my stomach with worry.

“Julie” he said with a sigh of relief.
“Are you ok?” I asked, “I know you talked to my sister…”
“Why didn’t you say you were leaving?”
“Because I knew you would beg me to stay” I replied, “I couldn’t stay there…there was too many memories Max”
“Julie, I need to see you”
“Max, right now…I don’t think that’s a very good idea”
“Julie, she’s not making me happy like you, I need you…”
“I think you should have thought of that when you listened to your family…”
I hung up the phone and sat cross legged on my bed, staring at it. If he truly cared, he would call back. I stared at the phone…nothing. Maybe it was best that this was over between us, and he could fix his marriage.

*Max’s POV*

I got back to our place and opened the door. Something didn’t feel right. I looked in the bedroom and all Liz’s things…were gone. I saw a note on the table.

I’m tired of coming in second, you want her, have her… I’m done

I just stared at the note, she was leaving? Great…first I leave Julie, than Liz leaves me, maybe that’s Karma at work. I crumpled up the piece of paper in my hand and tossed it in the garbage. Everything felt…better now. I didn’t love Liz anymore, there was a point when she made me fall head over heels for her everyday. But when I saw Julie, and talked to her. Saw her smile, heard her laugh, looked into her beautiful blue eyes…

Maybe the love of my life is not the one I married, maybe I found her while I was married, maybe it was just bad timing. If that’s true…I couldn’t let her pass me by.

I know I can’t do anything right now. I couldn’t just up and leave, looking all over God’s creation for her. Plus, maybe time is what she needs. As soon as this season is over, when I head home in the summer…I will do everything in my power to see her again. Even if it kills me.

this is the real thing
love changes everything
if you can just let go ...

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Chapter 13

I’m a month pregnant. I’m going crazy right now, being in Pittsburgh is not helping at all. I still haven’t cried over him. I’m proud of myself honestly, I should have told told myself long ago that he was not worth the tears. Maybe leaving Pittsburgh would help things…help me clear my head.

“Hey mom” I said into the phone.
“Hi sweetie, how are you?”
“Well I was hoping there was some room for me…at home…” I replied.
“You’re planning on coming home?” she asked excitedly.
“Yah. With the whole Max thing going on, it hurts to be around Pittsburgh” I said biting my lip, keeping the tears back, “so I was hoping Montreal would help”
“Well your room is still here sweetie” she answered, “we’ll be here when you get here”
“Thank you mom” I said, “oh, and I have some news. It’s better for face to face, but, it’s your opinion whether it’s good or bad news”
“I’ll tell you when I get home” I said hanging up the phone.

I had already bought the ticket and was leaving tonight. I just wanted to let my mom know I was coming. Looking back at the apartment I had shared so many memories with Max in, I quickly shut the door, before a break down started. It’s been a while since I cried, I was not going to start now.

Ever since Max last called me, when I told him I was no longer part of his life, was the last time I had spoken to him. He never called, or texted, I haven’t even run into him surprisingly. I was trying to move on, get my life in order again, start over. I knew I could not do that in Pittsburgh.


“Mom! Dad!” I exclaimed as they both gave me a huge bear hug, “where’s Ally?” I asked pulling back.
“She’s still not doing well since she got back from Pittsburgh. She’s not the same Ally anymore” my mom sighed.
“Have you tried talking to her?” I asked.
“Yes, but honestly I think you’re the only one who can cheer her up” she replied.
“Ok” I nodded.

Grabbing my bag, I went up the stairs, turned the corner and stopped at Ally’s room. I knocked on the door and didn’t get an answer.

“Ally bear?” I said, and immediately she opened the door.
“Julie” she said quietly giving me a hug.
“Sweetie, you ok?” I asked with concern.
“Kris keeps trying to call me” she said, “he even called the house…did you give him the number?”
I just nodded, “but it was for your own good”
“How?” she snapped crossing her arms across her chest.
“You should have seen him after you left Al. He was going nuts. He left his fiancee”
“What?” she replied slowly moving her arms down to her side, wide eyed.
“He said even in the short time you have known each other, he feels connected to you, he has serious feelings for you, I can see it”
I just nodded.
“Should I call him then?” she seemed a little flustered as she looked around the room for her phone.
“It looks like your already going to without my opinion”
She just stopped, looked up at me and smiled, “thank you Jules”
“You’re my sister” I shrugged, “I know you would do the same for me”

I picked up my bag and moved into the old familiar room I left at the tender age of 18 for the journalism program in Pittsburgh. Nothing changed. My Simple Plan, Fall Out Boy, and even my Billy Talent posters were all still up. I set my bag down and looked at the pictures that were still sitting on my desk. Ally and I mostly, along with some of my best friends, like Jordan, when we lived in Thunder Bay for a while. Some amazing memories sitting on that desk that I would never forget, and still some sitting in my mind, that I didn’t need pictures to remember…


“Mom, dad, I need to talk to you” I said moving into the living room, “Ally, you’ll probably want to hear this too”
“What’s going on dear?” my dad said looking up from his book.
“Well…” I said fiddling with the ring on my finger, “you all know what happened with Max” I saw my dad’s jaw clench and my mom shifted uncomfortably.
“I’m pregnant”
My dad just blinked a couple times, his face was completely blank, my mother had a look of shock on her face and my sister had a look of confusion. So many emotions…
“Excuse me?” my dad finally spat out.
“You heard me”
“How long?”
“A month…”
“Julie!” my mom exclaimed, “how could you keep something like that from us?”
“Because I knew how dad would react” I said pointing towards him. He was pacing and running his fingers through his hair with one hand and had his glasses in the other. He wanted to say something but the words wouldn’t come out.
“Mom, it’s practically the reason I came home, because of Max leaving…I didn’t have anyone to help me through this…I need your support” I pleaded.
She just looked at me with loving eyes and my dad stopped in his tracks and sighed, “well I guess there isn’t much we can do about it” he sighed.
“Of course we’re here sweetie” my mother said, “but it doesn’t mean I like what you did”
“Yes I know” I sighed, “but thank you”

I turned to my sister and she didn’t look pleased.

She stood up and just glared at me, “you are such a hypocrite”
“Excuse me?”
“You tell me you don’t want me going out, and meeting the team, you don‘t want what happened to you happening to me…when you got knocked up by one of the players!” she exclaimed.
“Ally!” my mom stood up.
“No, I’m sick of this. The moment I do one little thing wrong, I get criticized for it, and then she gets knocked up by a player…who’s married might I add and then you guys welcome her and pretend like nothing happened!”
“Ally, the only reason I tried to keep you from them was so you wouldn’t end up in the same situation I did! Which almost happened, your fucking lucky he left his fiancee or you’d be in the same shit I’m in!”
“Watch your mouth in this house Julie”
She just stared at me, “again…making everything about you…”
“Ally, stop acting like a 15 yr old” I snapped.
“Stop acting like the world revolves around you!”
I just took a deep breath and calmed myself, “I never once thought about myself when this whole thing happened with Max, it was all Max, I worried about him when he worried about me. And when I let you into my home, and took you to a game, let you meet some of the guys, you still go and take advandtage, running off with someone you barely know! Oh and that whole time, even though my heart was shattering, I still do everything in my power to find you….I may have my moments, but the world does not revolve around me” I rubbed my forehead and looked at her as she took it all in. I just shook my head and went upstairs. I didn’t need this stress, I didn’t want to hurt this baby.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Chapter 12

I was sitting on my bed. Thinking. I could still hear him getting his stuff ready to leave. I just wanted him to go, before I changed my mind and begged him to stay. Suddenly I heard a light knock on the door, I froze. I knew it was him, so I didn’t answer.

“Julie, just so you know, if there was any other way to do this, I would. I know you’ll be fine without me. You’ll find someone else, you’re too…incredible not too find someone else. Just remember that I love you, and I always will…”. It seemed he waited there to see if I would reply. I didn’t.
“Bye Jules…”
I just sighed as I heard the apartment door shut behind him. I jumped up and opened my door, he was gone. He was really gone...

*Max’s POV*

I got to the apartment I was kicked out of weeks before. I had already called her, she knew I was coming. She just didn’t know why.

“Why are you here?” she asked as I stepped in the door.
“I’m back” I simply said.
“Excuse me?”
“I want to work this out with you Liz” it really hurt to say it.
“What about…Julie?”
“I broke it off” I swallowed a lump in my throat and continued, “this is too important to throw away…”
“Yes” I simply replied.
She just jumped up and wrapped her arms around me, “I know we can get through this Max, I’m so glad you came to your senses”
I had something smart to say but I kept my mouth shut as she pulled back. I just fake smiled at her as she excitedly hugged me again.

*Julie’s POV*

I had sent Ally back home, like I had promised. I was now in an empty apartment, sitting on the couch, staring at the wall. I still hadn’t cried yet, but my chest felt like it was going to burst. I missed him like crazy, and it hurt, it hurt way too much. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do with myself now.

My thoughts were interrupted with a huge thump on the door. I hoped it was Max, but was disappointed when I looked in the peephole and saw Kris.

“What do you want?” I asked behind the closed door.
“I want to see Ally”
“Ally’s gone Kris. Go home” I replied moving away from the door.
“Julie, can I talk to you then?”
“I’m really not in the mood” I sighed.
“Please?” he pleaded.
I just took a deep breath and unlocked the door. He walked past me into the living room. He looked frustrated.

“What’s wrong with you?” he asked.
“I’d rather not talk about it with you” I snapped.
“No, sorry. Max went back to Liz”
“Yes” I replied.
“But he was so happy with you”
“I’m done talking about this” I said holding back the tears, “what do you want?”
“I feel like an idiot and want to apologize to her” he said, “I really felt a connection with her Julie, as cheesy as it sounds”
“What about Anna?” I asked referring to his fiancee.
“I ended it. We weren’t right for each other, and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about Ally”

I looked at him closely. You could tell he was being sincere. As much as I hated the guy for what he did, he really meant what he was saying. I didn’t know what else I could do.

“Kris, she went home…to Montreal” I said, “have you tried calling her?”
“She won’t return my calls. I’ve left messages, texts…she won’t respond”
“She gets the stubborness from me” I sighed.
“Is she coming back anytime soon?”
“Kris…if your around she won’t come anywhere near Pittsburgh”
He just sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.
“We’re both in the same boat now aren’t we?”
I just nodded and sat back, “everything hurts Kris. I haven’t cried since he left”
“When was that?”
“Last night”
“I guarantee you it will come” he replied, “you have to let it out Julie. I know you’re strong, and I know he’s probably not worth it, but it’s not healthy keeping it in”
“Yah I know” I huffed.
“You know what?” he said standing up, “I’m going to leave you alone”
“Wait Kris” I said jumping up, grabbing a pen, “here’s the number to my parents house. It’s where she’s staying until she gets the money for her own place” I wrote it down on his hand, “just don’t say your name to my parents, or she won’t talk to you”
“Thank you Julie”
“I can tell you really care about her. Even if you’ve only known her for less than a day”

He just smiled and gently hugged me before shutting the door behind him. I turned on the tv, avoiding all sports at all costs, because I knew I would see his face somewhere. Or something that reminded me of him.

I got up and walked into the kitchen, with the intent of making some coffee. When I heard my ringtone go off, probably Ally. I jogged to my bedroom when I saw an unlikely name, Max, but I had already opened my phone.

I froze.
“Julie I can hear you breathing”
I never knew hearing his voice would sound that good.
“What?” I snapped, “what else could you possibly want?”
“I’m sorry”
“Don’t keep apologizing unless you’re coming back. I’m done listening to you, you have a wife, I’m no longer a part of your life anymore”
“No Max. I’m done talking to you. Goodbye”

I tossed my phone on the bed. I told myself I wouldn’t cry over him, and I will not. I refuse to do it. He made the choice, if he thinks she is more important, than he is not worth the tears.

*You lied to me, you let me down,
you turned this smile into a frown
and now you're the only reason why,
I find it hard to sleep at night.
I'm feeling sad, I'm feeling blue,
I think of the past times spent with you
and now there's nothing left to say,
so I just turn my head away*

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Chapter 11

*So some ideas are comin to me for this one. It's exciting. I just wanted to thank all my readers and their comments :) I love hearing from you*

“I don’t want you near me Max” I snapped.
“Julie I--”
“You tell me where he lives, and I can do this myself” I replied.
He just nodded and gave me the address, “Jor…can you come with me?” I changed my mind.
Max just looked at him then back at me in confusion, “go back to Liz” I said quietly, “since you apparently love her”

Jordan gently directed me to his car and we arrived at a huge apartment building only a few minutes from the club. I opened the door and slammed it behind me, before I could do anything Jordan stopped me.

“Jules, don’t do anything you’ll regret. Try calling her again”
I just took a deep breath, nodded and pulled my phone from my pocket. I dialled the number, and waited, no answer, “I’m going up there Jor” but again he grabbed my arm.
“Jules, I’m not letting you up there until you calm down. You’ll help nothing if you have a fit, plus, we don’t need a scene, it’s late, there are other people in the apartment”
Jordy, always thinking of others, “fine” I replied taking a deep breath in, “ok…I’m good”
“Ok” he replied, “let’s go”

We made our way to the apartment and up the stairs. I stood in front of the door for a minute and knocked. Nothing. I knocked a bit harder this time.
“Who is it?”
“It’s me Kris” Jordan said.
“Yah” he replied, “it’s important”
“It can’t wait?”

I heard the lock click and the door opened. He froze the moment he saw me. Over his shoulder I saw Ally. I kept my composure and pushed Kris out of the way.

“Ally, we need to go” I told her.
“Why?” she asked looking at me with confused eyes.
“Kris is engaged Al…” was all I said.

She just looked at him, back at me than back at him. She stared at him for a minute before she looked down at the ground. She was breaking my heart.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked quietly, keeping her eyes on the ground
“Ally, I--”
“Don’t get near her” I said moving in front of him.
“Julie, this has nothing to do with you” he replied.
“Kris, when it comes to my little sister, it has everything to do with me” I said, “we’re leaving”

Ally grabbed her phone off the table and shoved it in her back pocket. She glared at him as she passed him and then disappeared around the corner.

“You ever try to get near her again…I swear…”
“You swear what?” he snapped.
“You have not seen half of what I can do Kris, do not underestimate me…” I said walking out the door and Jor just shut it behind him.

I walked out to the car and found Ally leaning against it, tears falling gently. I slowly moved towards her and wrapped my arms around her, “I’m sorry Al”
“It’s not your fault” she sniffed, “I was stupid enough to believe him”
“You’re not stupid” I reassured her, “he’s the ass”
She just shrugged, looking over my shoulder at Jordan, “where’s Max?”
His name made me cringe at this point, “we’re done…”
“What happened?” she asked.
“He decided to go back to Liz…because of something his father said”
“So that’s what was up this morning…”
“Yah, anyways, I’m done talking about him, let’s go home. Jor can you drive me back to my car please?”
“Sure thing” he replied.

We got to the car and I slipped the key in the lock opening the door and unlocking the passenger door.

“Yah?” I replied turning around.
“You going to be ok?”
“I’ll be fine” I sighed, “it’s only a broken heart…I’ll survive…”
He just wrapped his arms around me and I melted into him. He was an amazing friend.
“I’ll call you”
“See you later Jor” I replied moving into the drivers seat.

We got home and I immediately spotted Max’s car. Probably cleaning out his stuff. Great.

“Jules, I’m worried about you” she said as we made it to the door.
“I’m fine” I sighed unlocking it and opening it.

I looked up and locked eyes with him. Those eyes that once shined, were dark, and cold…sad. I looked away and shut the door behind me. Ally walked up to him and looked up at him, on account she wasn’t the tallest person in the world.

“What gives?” was all she asked.
“Excuse me?”
“First you leave your wife for her, cause you claim you’re in love with her, then you go back to your wife? Is my sister not enough for you?”
I just grabbed her and pulled her back, “stop” I whispered, “leave it alone. He made his decision”
“Can we talk?” he asked. He looked over at Ally then to me, “alone?”
I shooed Ally to her room and she glared at him once more before shutting the door.

“Talk” I simply said.
“You know I love you”
“I have to do this”
“Damn it Julie, you have more to say. I know you” he snapped.
“I do. But none of it will convince you to stay with me, so there is no point in trying” I shot back.
“Give it a shot”
He just stared at me as the thoughts formed in my head. Finally, I spoke.
“I love you Max. With all that I have in me. I have never felt anything like this before, which is the reason I am carrying your child. But if you would rather fulfill a commitment because your “dad said so” than to stay with the one your really in love with, your not worth it. And I will not cry a tear over you”
All he did was grab my face and kiss me, I couldn’t help but kiss him back and it took all I had in me to pull back and push him off.
“I knew you had it in you” he whispered.
“Don’t” I said moving away from him.
“Don’t do something like that if you still plan on leaving Max. That’s not fair…”
“Julie I--”
“Fuck you, Max” I snapped, “just stay away from me”

I walked into the bedroom and shut the door behind me. I told myself I wouldn’t cry over him, I told him that. It’s all his fault. He made me this strong. Not to take any crap from anyone, including him. So I’m done. I’m done fussing over him, I’m done crying, because he is no longer a part of my life.